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Hello my love, Were sitting here Sunday night, kids are all gone (woohoo) lol And your writing on your leg. hehehe. I love you. I know we didnt do a lot this weekend and I spent some time studying, I know its a pain in the ass but hopefully only 3 more weeks and the next section will be easier and slower going. Yes we do need to finalize our wedding stuff. We need to get the marriage license, get you a tux. Me a slip and bra. And figure out where we want Eric to give us our vows. We could see about maybe doing just our vows and such in our backyard? It would be free lol. Although we have to have it later in the day after school and all. So we'll see. Maybe in the house or I dont know, we could see if the church is cheap, just for the ceremony.

We'll get it done, to me my love, all I need is you and me, and having it offical. That is all I want and need.

This Friday we have a couple bills to pay but other than that we can use what we need for the rest of the wedding stuff.

Okay love, serious question and thinking time...about dance lessons, First off, you know how much I love them, want them and am serious about wanting to really learn them. And I would LOVE, truely love for us to learn together. But I need to know how you truely, deeply, honestly feel about it, about you taking them. You were for awhile very against that, and I just need you to think about your true reasons for suddenly wanting to now. Is it because you felt bad for me, is it because you dont like the idea of me dancing with someone else, is it because you feel obligated? All of those I understand but can not be a reason to take up dancing. It has to be because in your heart, you truely want to take dance lessons, because YOU want to learn. You want to seriously learn.

You understand what Im trying to say and ask? I need to know its not out of any other reason but that you have changed your mind and honestly just want to learn to dance. Because if we started together and you were not into it for the right reasons, it wouldnt be good. I am so for and all excited if your really serious about wanting to. But I am also okay and understand if you really would rather not, and only said you would out of any of those other reasons.

Please think about it, look inside and whatever you decide I am for and behind. I love you!!!! You are my wonderful, sexy, amazing man!! Your taking a shower now, you asked if I was writing a book lol. I guess I tend to write alot sometimes, you know this though. Im sure you will read this when I get in and have an answer for me.

No hot water....that sucks, Im sorry love. I did use a bit of very warm water earlier.

Well, now to look forward to next weekend lol. Maybe we can catch a movie or something? I love you darling. So soon we will be a married couple hehehehe. My husband!!! That puts a smile on my face every single time I think or say it!

Hi baby

Now you're in the shower, and hopefully you have some hot water. We've had a nice weekend, and it's okay that we didn't do a whole lot. It's very nice to just relax and do whatever we want, and the weather has been very nice. I'm so ready for Spring. We can get out more and do some family things without freezing.

Okay, here's the thing about dancing. You know me, and you know I'm the kind of person who doesn't want to look foolish in front of other people. My rhythm is equivelant a broken rocking chair... but you have seen me do little moves here and there when certain songs would come on. Did I look goofy? Of course, but that urge is within me to dance at times. I know, for a fact, that it is a passion with you to learn serious dancing. I see it, and I encourage you to pursue any dream you have. I didn't think much about me learning, or I thought you would teach me moves once you learned, but the other night when we went to the class... yes, I did feel bad because everyone there were a couple, learning together. I thought to myself... yes, I do want to learn, and I need to get past my goofy male pride. I don't want to learn to dance because I felt bad, or because I feel obligated, I want to learn, and I want us to learn together. It didn't bother me to see you dancing with the instructor, I know it's his job. I would sincerely love to at least try, and I think it would be good for us to learn at the same pace, if possible. I thought I would end up reading while you were at class, but all I could do was intently watch, and try to remember the moves in my head. So yes babe, I would love to learn, with you. Not for the wrong reasons. I'm positive of this.

You're out of the shower now, smelling oh so lovely. We'll work on wedding plans sweety. I don't know about having the ceremony in the back yard. We will talk to Eric about at the church. Maybe a reception here at home. I do agree with you. Being married is top priority and is all the really matters, but we can still have a nice little wedding. I love you very much baby. You are my complete and perfect life, and I could not ask for anything more. I love you !!!

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