You're not silly. I love going back and looking too. I love you baby, more than ever. LOL.... imagine 20 years from now, us going back and looking at this. If MSN is still around.... maybe I'll work on copying ALL of our previous messages, just in case. I LOVE YOU.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I'm sorry about Chloe babe... I should have known that would happen. Well, I guess I did, that's why I got onto her for drinking so much. She can be so damn irritating lately.

 

I'm sorry I said that, about being so depressing lately. I understand your feelings baby. I just want you to be confident in how much I truly do love and desire you. The thing that's going on, it's so common, so nothing, so miniscule in the overall picture of US. It happens, and we will get you taken care of sweetheart. I know it bothers you, to think it is bothering me, or affecting me in some way. The situation with Julie was from the time I met her, all the way through our marriage, she had a problem. First of all, I don't think she ever thoroughly washed herself down there. Not real vigorously or detailed like, LOL... if you know what I mean. She was a hick girl from a little hick town with a hick mother, and honestly I don't think she ever really thought about it or was even taught to keep her stuff really clean. Second.... and I assume this had a lot to do with it ..... but she constantly got yeast infections, and I think maybe it had to do with all the sodas she would drink, because she constantly had bladder infections, and I would get onto her about it, but she would have a Dr. Pepper ALL day long. She went nowhere or did nothing without having Dr. Pepper. Back then, not having much medical benefits, none at all usually, she never went to the Dr. for the problem, and so she would just let it pass. Most of the time, she would never even tell me about a bad flair up, and she would spread it on to me, and it would be so bad sometimes, I remember my dick would itch and the skin would peel off. (nice visual, huh?) So yes, it would alot of times affect our sex life.

 You and I have been together at least 3 years babe.... and this is the first time this has really come up. I'm smart enough to know that it is common for women, and it happens, and you just get it taken care of. I haven't thought of you as gross, not one bit. It has definitely bothered you more than me, and I'm sorry it has affected you in such a way. You have always been so yummy, and clean downstairs, it not a hygiene problem, or an ongoing problem. Even though you are so shy about it, I have always loved going down on you. It has been a great reward for me, to taste you, to be so close to your little patch of Heaven LOL.... to pleasure you in a way that is truly pleasurable to me. This is a temporary moment in our long life together, and in no way, shape or form is it affecting my thoughts or views of you, or US. We'll get it taken care of, and if it means for a little while that I haven't been able to go down, then that only builds such sweet anticipation for the day that I get to. Please, don't be embarrased, ashamed or worried in any way, okay baby? I love you and everything about you.

 

We'll try to get you in today. I have to go to work at 2:30 and will be busy into the evening. Tomorrow will be less busy and we can probably easily make it to the college. You know I will always back you in anything you want to do or be. You are so very important in so many ways, and it's 100% necessary that you feel that way about yourself, first and foremost. At times I admit, my self motivation is very pathetic, and at times I have had no desire to advance myself. That's all part of MY low self-esteem, having failed at so many things throughout my life, at times I have convinced myself... why even bother, I'll only fail.... but I know that's a very screwed way of thinking, and with your help, and your drive to try harder, all of that can change. We'll look into it together, and it sounds wonderful to possibly go to classes together. At times my thoughts are torn on between, just being like we are, getting assistance and not really working hard for anything in life and accepting where we are... and actually working hard to get ahead in life, being dependent on us and only us and being successful in life and having everything we ever desired. I have never had the latter, so it can be a scary thought at times. I've always hated failure, so I guess I've always played it safe, not setting myself up too high to allow myself to fail. If that makes sense. You though, you drive me, and encourage me and build my self confidence. And I hope I always do that for you.... so yes, I will always stand behind you in anything you wish to pursue. I love you babydoll, so very much.

 The password is GLENBER-69 .... capital letters. I haven't figured it all out yet, but it's a movie discussion thingy. I think the computer has me always signed in. Here's a link directly to the page

I love you sweetheart. So very very much. I am forever yours....me