.... at the store, I missed you so very much. I hate not being with you. I should have just went too. I sit here, it's a little stormy out and dark, and of course I worry about you. If anything ever happened to you, I don't believe I could handle that. I love you so much baby. I'm sorry I've been so weird today. Just haven't felt quite right. Not tired exactly, just kind of off. It's hard to explain. I understand your frustration about not getting to do what was planned for the 4th. I am sorry baby. I need a real job, so bad, so I can take care of us, and we can do even just the simple things in life we enjoy. I take it all pretty personal, because I am suppose to be the provider, so I feel guilty when I see you so upset over something I should have control over. I don't ever want to disappoint you, but I feel as though I have. I just hope you are happy sweety, and content..... well, I understand if not content, but I'm working on that. I need you now more than I ever have. I need you by my side, forever and always, as my partner and soulmate.

 I hope you'll be home soon. I miss you, muchly. I love you !!