You had a folder with the pix's of me and the dogs...and a folder inside of that one. I just put the inside folder of pix's in the OTHER folder of pix's we have already and deleted the folder that was on the desktop. Just out of habit anytime I send something to the trash can I empty it. I wasn't being overly sensitive. I could tell you were perturbed I got rid of your stuff, even though it was in the trashcan. As I said, I will be more aware of what's in it before I empty it... just in case there's something you didn't mean to throw away.

 

Yep, you're out of poopills, and I'm out of wakey pills. Sounds like we both have some minor dependencies. We'll get yours sometime tomorrow... as for mine, who knows when. We'll get my check, get it in the bank and hopefully get insurance and the Blazer going again. Not sure what we'll do to make the payment.... I guess we'll figure it out.

 

I'll get a job... even if it's wal-mart again, something. And this time, if I bitch about my job, no matter what don't let me quit LOL. I'm going to complain about any job I have, that's just a fact, but it's something I just have to deal with. I know it makes us stronger to go through hard times, but enough is enough, when we can't even pay basic bills. I hate for us to be in this situation. No, it's not the end of the world babe... we still have each other and our love, but we could easily lose what little bit of things we do have. We don't have much, but it's our entertainment, all we have... our vehicle, tv, computer and netflix, but we're so close to losing even that. I don't expect or even need for us to be rich, but I so want us to be comfortable. I want us to have the money to run and get poo pills if you need it, or run to sonic if we choose and get a yummy treat, or even have the gas and vehicle to take a trip somewhere if we decide. I'm the provider baby, that's my job, my roll. Not to just provide for you and the kids, but to be able to send money for Kasey, which is my moral duty. I've allowed myself to... I don't know. I don't want to say get lazy, but something. I've allowed myself to think it's okay to not be employed, and that things will just work out. You've been so patient, and I know you are now trying to help and give me a push, and I appreciate that so much. I need your support, and motivation to get me back out there. I need to focus in on priorities and keep that in sight, focus in on what should be driving me and giving me the motivation, and that's for us to simply be comfortable, and not have to stress at the end of every single month, and now coming up is school, birthdays, Christmas. I just have to get my head out of my ass and get serious. I love you so very much baby... so very much, and I don't ever want to dissappoint you or let us down. Thank you for being by my side, and being my best friend, and loving me. I love you so much for that.... forever!