Dear Linda~On June 3rd my 45 year old sister...and my best friend and all I had left of my birth family, died suddenly of a heart attack while sleeping a little after lunch. I have not been online because I still am not believing this has happened. She took very good care of me during this year and 8 months of being disabled....and I do not understand why God would leave me here after I have raised my 5 children and seen 4 grandbabies.....and she has a `10 year old son still. Our father had 3 heart attacks by 33 and had to retire, and his father died suddenly like Jeanne at 48 which is how old I turned on May 16. I am trying to take care of her affairs as her husband was 14 years older and NEVER thought he would outlive her, and trying to be there for her youngest son. Her other 2 children are both over 18. I still am more in denial than accepting this. On tues. she was supposed to take me to my SSDI hearing............I won my case even though we could not introduce the fact that I have been unable to breathe, etc. I won on my joint and bone problems. Please if you do not hear from me unjoin me, I just have to try to help my nephew right now...whether I am physically able to or not. I am not sleeping or eating well, and was attacked by one of her 4 cats in my sleep last Sunday very badly and got cat scratch fever. My forehead and right arm and leg will be permanently scarred. If you send the addy for your new group I will join when I am on here again. I hope all is well with you. My doctor is going to get me in for heart tests as soon as I get Medic Aid. I will be so glad to get away from free clinic. But I am not sure I will ever get over the loss of my baby sister whom I love dearly. Love. Cathy