I am so sorry, yes you are young and life is being a bitch right now. There are no quick fixes. We all understand how you feel here so you moan away. It's scarey not being able to breathe and short of a neon sign on your forehead, no one can see the struggle.
The steroids can do marvellous things so hopefully it may push towards medication. Don't think of the big scene unless you have to. Just remember we are rooting for you here.
Beau