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Today is July 3rd. I wake up feeling the same way i have in months ..Wondering what my purpose in life really is! I was put here for a reason but why do i always feel like i have failed im seem to be always falling. 1st girls decide they wanna see there dad his new baby and things are going well Jen gets a car janine another cell but not what she wants so thats starts the fight after jen get the car she wants knowing to do with him.. Which i reason with her cause it isnt right that she gets janine wont if they stop talking with him so i pressure the visiits even if its an hour they are never alone one on one.. Alot of drama in that situation. So i asked they hold off til Janine gets her car is that selffish of me. I personally despise t he ass and wish alot of not so nice things upon him. Then we move to the ladies if it wasnt one appointment is was another. Solved for this month lol. Then i have a hubby that feels noone does just him i hate to beg to differ with that then we get into it about his drinking i swear he can whizzle without a frigging beer in his hand. I shake inside life is suppose to go forward not back and i seem to have brought to things i despise into my life and my kids lives. Drinking and a child molester that i wanna just tear to shreds. I blame myself and i didnt do it but i guess that what we do.. now i have two young girls that think life revolves around walking the streets well walking them now adays is nothing like when we were young. There not bad girls but they like the drama and it excites them to be grown up i guess. We have som e terrible cat fights Argueing all virbal. It kills me i lose sleep over it .. Then there is the cops at my door once because i called them of a supious person luring down the road from the house did they do anything NO!!! Then i call again when my brother calls me and tells me t his women jumps from her car and is threathening my daughter who is 15 and then he tells me i stopped aint noone gonna screw with my blood and she goes on to tell him that i have two wonderful girls there hanging with the wrong company sitting in the park on a set of swings walking for a burger. But they did piss me off the other day they got into a car with a friend of a friend and i went wild.. On my cell i get a disturbing phone call and the girl litterelly sounded drunk. Apolizing to me which she had me and my daughters cell mixed up .. So i call poice UGH im not into the police cause personal i dont think they do shit!! my daughter comes home to get clean cloths and a few items and her friend and mother come to fill me in on what has been happening ..I dont need to leave home i swear. I called her concerned about the kids up street not only did this women threanten them but a grown man came shortly there after.. Well she is at my table all of a sudden a banging on the door and its her hubby come home right away we are getting threat calls on our daughter there gonna kill the whoel family now my bllod is boiling .. I call police they say they cant do anything about my calls because it wasnt a threat ok i understand that .. I tell him about the other calls woo hoo well that didnt go over well either he said get ahold of the police officer that is in charge he will be on call tomorrow i said Mr.. and this is being nice .. They apparently dont know where i live .. But they have harassed my children since t his young girl was hurt and i wont take it anymore.. you see the adults not only threathen they went to the girls home and now calls. So to make a long story short i told him i wish like hell they would come here cause they would be calling 911 you see im not scared and im not crying im angry. There is one thing in life that i would walk on water for and that is my chidlren. I havemy rights as a parent to protect them i told him in no uncertain terms you mess with my children your messing with ME!!! I wont take the BS. He said claim down i understand you know what No you dont if you did this shit would have stopped before it eslated this far. I said my hubby may sleep through a storm but i dont. And noone will come to my door with threats.. And so now we wait til the phone company traces the call and i said i have a strange feellin that they will say sorry mam we were able to trace your call.. UGH!!! lets keep our fingers crossed.. And last but not least. I made a mistake in group i was not paying attention and typed something that i would never ,my heart was tore up bad i could do nothing but cry i know Dawn warned me that she was gonna post about cussing and i know she didnt blame it all on me but i was just going through so much that one more thing i could not handle i was closing off from everyone till i got a chance to think things over always know i love eacha nd everyone of you dearly and i have been under so much stress that being here is one of my life savers .. To laugh joke and chat with all of you mean the world to me and i wouldnt wanna be any other place than this i was just at the point of being crazy being hurt and wanna to just illunate everyone from my life.. But im cool with it and im dealing!!! So thats my story and if you can figure it out god bless you..

Its July 9th i have almost everything done exceot my shower. Today is gonna be stress day but im a happy stresser today i just found out that i may be a aunt and im so excited .. I pray Jen passes her test and Janine is ok with the babies while im away. My laundry is dripping on the line. Ugh My stomach is in knots for some reason and i cant get the feeling out .. Its not a bad knot just weird is all. But anyways im getting off soon and i will let you all know if im going to be MIA or having a good day should hear from me around 2 ish..

I'm having a very very bad day. 1st I wake up late and all i hear is two kids screaming my name im like UGH!!! I jump up get dressed and run from my room theres my brother with his sweet little grand daughters 2 and 4 screaming Joanne im hungry i want a bananna,ok ok i will let me get up ladies Run for Graces room she is in there starked naked layin on her bed look she says im gettng ready ok wheres your cloths oh i didnt know i needed them ok get her cloths and then she says well arent ya gonna dress me ok dress Grace ask her to just put on your shoes . Run from the room bump into Donna she is all smiles i swear she had her top dentures on the bottom gums UGh! she is all dressed and ready to go shoes on wrong feet but she is dressed rush off to Dianes room and all the way im hearing but Joanne we are hungry can we get something to eat. In the meantime hubby sits there with this stare on his face i said for petes sake (mildy and polite ) could you get them someting .. HE has the balls to say its not my job oh well it became heated and not mild nor polite off to Dianes room she is acheing and paining yeah ok thats my day life .. So i get her cloths pulled out lets go .. I run to t he kitchen which is right outside the door and start breaksfast i like tomake sure they have a big one so there not hungry before lunch well not today they had wheaties and liked it. Can y ou believe this sob is still sitting there i looked over no coffee i said you even gonna make coffee he said yeah geesh i just got up gonna give me a minuate ok im hot now t he sweat is pouring down my face everyone is at the table Grace has slippers on i run for her room on goes her shoes Donna still sitting with her shoes on the wrong feet i tell her and no there not well the hell with it then .. She acaully walks beter with them like that .. Then i notice Diane has no undees on hey im the only one that is allowed to do that i said wheres your panties she says you never gave me any OMG!!! The frigging draw is right there now im about ready to cry. I telling myself hold on hold on.. So now Everyone is all set ladies kids and hubby is outside smoking a cig!! Coffee nope still needed a minuate i guess so im making coffee he has the balls to come in and say i was just gonna do that well let me tell you that can of coffee went out of my hand so fast that i didnt even realize what i did lol.. Knocked him right in the head and coffee went all over the frigging place. Well im the Bitch today .. lol HE disappears and im making lunch for Diane for her Diet . done .. woo hoo coffee is all picked up and i just got to sit down and Diane decides she has to go potty and cant wipe herself . Now the girls follow suite. Omg when will this end. I finish that little task and now its pill time to hear do i have to take them YES DAmnit you do. Well Mr Minuates in the shower oh now im pissed to say the least. So i decide i will run alittle water and i hear damn it OUCH hehe got him. Awe you can hear a pin drop coffee is done i pour a cup go to take a sip and taxi off goes the ladies take sme 10 minuates slower than slower today. Ok there gone now back to that coffee He's drinking it omng he is drinking my coffee what in heck well you were out there talking with that taxi man why let it get cold so you throw it out yeah ok i havent tasted a hot coffee in months. I think because i went to bed last night in a very bad mood and then when i went to get into bed his comment was damn i can nver get sleep around here after he had been in t here for hours it totally pissed me off and i went to bed with it. And dreamt about i havent a clue just that i was walking around with the coffee pot. Crazy huh.. So before he walked out the door i said dont have your bicthes calling here about a pool being fixed at 9:30 anymore if thats what you were doing why were they calling to see if you got it done. your not the boss of that place and your not getting paid to be a boss. His Cooment was (dont worry they wont be calling much longer cause i wont be here ). COOL WITH ME..AO

So i went off started making beds and cleaning and these girls got my living looking like a romper room.. you know what i say to heck with it.. There leaving at 12.. Hope that comes soon. calm before the storm my daughter jens calls down mom what time we leaving we were suppose to go get my kitchen table this am but seeing the girls are leaving at noon we arent going now she is pissed off.Cats fighting with the dog.. And now my phone is ringing so i willhave to let you know the rest of the day later .. Woo hoo some heck of a journal huh.. more like a book..

Pray that i make it through the day..

July 16 didnt sleep well last night it was hot in here and i didnt wanna run the central air ladies tend to get to cold and then they get sick. So i was dying even with the windows open. I have three small babies today to watch so far so good. Hubby got up made coffee got his shower dressed and grabbed his coffee and off he went oh well he will get over it or die with it i guess. I wont talkw ith him either tired of it every day. and every night. House stayed clean til the kids got here now it looks like someone is movin but ya gotta let them play and have fun keeps them out of trouble and my nerves in check.. So im off soon to start someting for lunch then there ALL taking naps like it or not .

January 18 what a day from hell this has been 1st Jons yelling water is running all over garage gonna start a fire so run for all i can done the steps i see no water so i call him on his cell what in heck are you talking about there is no water in the garage Duh i forgot we have two.. so i call hubby what can i do well geesh im at work now im rather irate and i hang up on him you see i call his cell and he wont answer i call again no answer 2 seconds later he calls me i think something is seriously happening that im not aware of .. Then he gets mad rushes home the problem .. in the meantime there has been delays in ladies going to program and kids in school ok deal with that clean my house to have 3 rugrats totally trash it again Ugh my house is like walmarts isle of toys .. So i yell nexted thing you know they have the damn cable box down behind the entertainment center now tx doesnt work .. So all of them are on the coach im and hotter than a wippers Butt.. My head is hurting and im psst to say the least .. The phone now has been ringing since 5:30 am and its like why isnt he grabbing that (hubby) because he has left already funny the sneak usually turns on the light just to wake me he was sneaky this am didnt even know he was gone and doesnt have to be in til 8 and there is no damn over time in his check theres a rat some where and im gonna find it.. so lunch now there all being angles and eating .. And to my suprise in walks hubby done for the day hummmm.. Wash up the little ones and off for there naps when the phone rings its the program where the ladies are at my little Grace fell Ugh so i yell to hubby you need to watch kids im need to get to the hospital and it isnt the local one either i hate riding alone its like riding with no radio.. so i call a few people nope cant go so i call the school to get my girls out so one can go with me cause.. My lovely hubby went in and was taking himself a nap Nice Huh... So long story short school needs a fax i send given them permission to leave call to make sure they are on there way no answer so i decide to call Janines cell and she says oh we are having a fire drill well turns out it wasnt at all it was a fire in the school kids all loaded into a few buses for safety needless to say they didnt get here until late .. Off to get Grace and she is back home they werent concerned she looks ok but i think she may have a little bout of the flu.. Will watch closely.. I refuse to cook dinner girls are getting subs for everyone im not gonna eat my stoamch in knots and i picked up a dunkin donut coffee that did the trick.. well thats some of my day..

today was a bad day for sure Diane was home vomitting all day and then i had the 3 little ones making a mess i did manage to clean up house mop again and i sprayed everything with bleach i pray she is better by morning.. Oh the women that i was telling everyone about well she did it good to the girls this time she dropped there grades in the 80's wont stop jen from getting a credit but she is trying real hard i will fill you in more tomorrow im just feeling terrible tonight..

Joanne, I'm sorry you're having a bad day. Bless your heart. Praying Diane's better tomorrow.

Hello everyone was wishing i could get some sleep but when im tense like this it just doesnt come so i thought if i could tell you what has been happening here maybe it would atleast make me feel alittle better. Well today Jen my sr called mom you are not gonna believe his this witch dropped or grades just like she threaten to do i thought it wouldnt effect jen graduating but it will im so devasted i would have said more.. Well anyways im sure you remember me telling you how Janine had gotten into trouble and i had to hire a lawyer well this teacher just so happens to be the mother of the girl Janine was with.. Well she isnt a teaher she is a aide.. She has slammed my daughter in a door got away with it, swore at the kids got away with it, set up kids to put a trash can infront of the table my daughters are eating at got away with it can eat and drink in class students cant monitors her daughter in iss which is a disipline class and they surf the web. Oh the list goes on and its BS so when Jen called me today and told me about the grade she says mom do something ok what.. hum they are not suppose to use there cells and tg noone has gotten wind on how im getting the info. I said ok let me think what to do.. Well i had contacted my lawyer a few weeks back and he said dont go to the principal anymore go to the superintendent so i call the school i said hi this is joanne S is the principal available only because i knew he wouldnt be ( He is in more meetings than Carter has liver pills) so she says no he is in a meeting right now with the superintedent i said oh goodie thats acually who i need to talk with she said hold.. So to make a long story short he was in the meeting but within 15 minuates called me back.. I told him i was advice by my lawyer to contact him and then i began to tell him the situation he said oh my i hope your wrong i hope she isnt doing this i was like well do you think i call because i just want you to listen to my damn voice hell ive had enough and you know what its not just my girls its anyone that is associated with them listen my children are not angels but i will tell everyone straight up there not trash either and i wont tolerate this Bs.. So he was so silent i knew he had me on speaker i know the principal was right in the room he said oh joanne i didnt hang up im taking notes .. And i will get on this right away and get back to you well he DIDNT... Now im hotter than hot have to contact lawyer and see whats nexted he doesnt want me to get intouch with Albany until we have plenty to work with..

anyone have any ideas on what they think i should do .. I pray this works out im sicker than a dog over this..

Sorry for the long post..

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