Hello everyone,
Well it is Sunday afternoon and I am sitting here eating a couple of m&m's and drinking coffee.For some reason, the past week has kinda been an emotional testing week. Maybe just all those hormones acting up and getting back on track. Also I am supposed to see a specialist in Vancouver in two weeks and all of a sudden I find out it is not the doctor that I wanted. I got a paper in the mail with a totally different doctor's name on it. I was really counting on seeing the one because she is super. I checked the ratings online and she has all good ones. This other doc, has only one good rating out of like 25 or something. Kinda is making me nervous. And then on Tuesday, my boss calls me up and tells me that I should come back to work soon because it didn't seem like I had a very big surgery, and I need a doctor's note if I take the next two weeks off. The original plan was that I didn't need to return until December 1. And plus, my stitches aren't even dissolved yet. I told him, sorry I cannot lift yet, and I am not ready to be teaching 5 year olds. He told me I knew what he wanted and it is my choice to live up to it. WHATEVER! I never did have a good relationship with him, and now it just got worse! I know I didn't have a super serious surgery but my belly still looks like a chunk of the rainbow, and I want it healed before I go back to work! SO THERE!!!!!
Anyhow, I also had an incident with a really good friend who has been so very helpful to me over the years. She never degraded me for my ailment. And I always thoght wow, she is a true friend. However, just before my surgery she told me that she didn't believe me that I was always in pain. I kind of got upset, and asked her why. She just said that it is impossible to always be in pain. I showed her that Endo survivor letter (off the main page here) and now she hasn't called or visited me since. She didn't even call when I was in hospital. I feel really awkward approaching her...what do I say/do? That has kinda caused a bit of the emotional turmoil as I felt like she always tried her best to help me out. In return I always helped her out as well, of course...it was never that I took advantage of her. She did have a baby lately that hit a wrong nerve in me, but I never said anything about it to her. I kinda broke down at her house and told her sorry and left. It was all good after that, except that she never took her baby anywhere near me. And that is not what I wanted either. I just have a moment like that once in a while and it just happened to be her having that baby and holding that baby that pulled at those sensitive heartstrings.
Owell, whatever!!! Just needed to let off a bit of steam.....think I should go enjoy a nice walk with the dogs and hubby.
Have a wonderful week ladies!
Clara
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