I am getting to the point where MIL is being a royal pain in the butt, she can't make up her mind. She wants me to be at home to take care of Mike, but then she wants me to go out and get a job and a car so I can take her to the store, places she wants to go and to the doctor.

 

She wants us to stay where we are living at and put up with the landlord. She wants us to move closer to her too but still can't make up her mind.

 

MIke is taking up for me telling his mom that I am doing the best that I can. which is the truth. IF I have a job I won't be able to do things and she will bitch and complain about that too. I am damned if I do and I am damned if I don't so either way can't please anyone. I am getting so fed up with her nagging about me to find a job, and to get a car and come over to be with her. There are times I don't want family over here, I want peace not seeing the same face all the time, talking on the phone everyday it kind of gets tiring after awhile.

 

When Mike and I had our place in Johnstown my aunt was not too far away but she respected me not calling all the time only so often. I had a job there, sometimes I wonder why I left it again. At least I got work when they needed me to do things and who knows things could have changed this year. But I am not living in Johnstown anymore I am in a new town/city and have no way of knowing people to get a job. All the folks in Johnstown if you knew someone you got hired. Now its going to be totally different and I am going to have to relie on myself which there are times I don't do that.

 

When I get rejected for a job I take it personally thinking I don't have the skills to do the proper work. I like to be hired right on the spot at least I know that I will get the job, don't like we will call you and you know that they never will. I am doing my best to get a associates degree for early childhood education to work in preschool or daycare here in florida and then I have to figure out how to get certified to teach.... thanks for letting me vent