I AM TIRED AND FED UP

 

I am so fed up and tired running, here calling there trying to do the packing, getting boxes to pack, get them done, dishes done, sweep, mop and keep my sanity where am I going to find the time to do this? I am at my wits end I have been promised by my hubby to get things done, he said he had to go through stuff and throw stuff out and then he would help pack. well I went to get more boxes this evening around 10:30 was back by midnight. I took a stroll around walmart to calm down. dear hubby decided to go nutso on me, crying and saying he wanted to give up on life, he was tired of it all and wanted me to let go and let him just die. I am like I want to ring your neck if you die on my I will never forgive you. why do I have to be the one this has to happen to because of all this stress for the move. I know he is under alot of this too and its tiresome.

 

I have to find the energy to do dishes ran out of paper to put some in the boxes, pack and then move tomorrow. I am like where oh where am I going to be able to do this.. I am so tired now and I have 2 more rooms beside the kitchen and half the bath.

 

SIL said she will take the yarn and afghan I had started I have no use for it now since I was told to get rid of it by my dear hubby. grrr grrr grrr I have been going through clothes I dont want and shoes I dont want he says I dont need and going to give them to salvation army. I will give ida books to read it will help her and she loves to read that helps me out there. that is some stuff gone that is for sure.

 

that place we have gotten is only for 2 people not 3 but we are helping our neighbor out until she can get onto her feet. hopefully soon for I know that I want time with my hubby and my privacy. which I know there is going to be none. so just let me have my games, music and my pc and I will be out of everyone's hair and of course my pets too.

 

they know something is going on and don't like it and I am trying my best to spend time with them during all of this move. I am sad and wore out I don't think I have the energy to do stuff tonight but I have to I got to get this done. I need to get this done and I wish I had help but no everyone wants to sleep we helped my neighbor move her stuff over to the new place the least she could do is help me. but I am not going to expect I have to do this myself. for I will know where things are and I am heading to do dishes and pack dishes and then who knows what else before I nod off. FIL wants to be here early tomorrow and I know that I am not going to be ready by 7 am there is no way but I will try even if I have to move some of this stuff by car over there and try not to break my neck moving it from one to the other. meaning house to car and reverse.  off I go not merrily to pack and get ready for this move since I am the only one doing it here in this family I might as well get what I can done. once I am moved he can put things up and unpack if he can or whatever.

 

I have to get the storage unit on monday and try to take things by car over there I am hoping FIL will come and help me there too so I can get things in. to make room in the house to spread out :)