I am going to grouch about how life has been lately. I am beginning to feel trapped in the world and depressed that I cant make things better for family and my pets. I try to do my best but sometimes it just doesnt seem enough and I have read joyce meyers book approval addiction and I do reccommend it as a good read :)

 

I am tired of my hubby belittling me in front of others I dont do that to him I deserve the same amt of respect as he gets. We had a friend move with us because she couldnt find a place and didnt have enough money. it seems he would rather be in her company then mine, belittle me in front of her and talk about me with her instead of facing me with it.

 

then when we do face each other to communicate I down myself because I dont feel good enough and I know that is wrong but when you are stressed and feel as if the weight of the world is on your shoulders it does make you feel bad.

 

then my dog gets sick and I worry about him, I have to he is my baby I have had him for 18 yrs and I want to keep him around for as long as I can. he isn't in any pain, he may have had a stomach virus this weekend that made him week, he is eating and drinking starting to pee more but not pooop that is what I am worried about.

 

then moving into a place with no ac that doesnt help my pets either they got kind of spoiled I hope I can someday get my own home for I sure want to be my own landlord that way if something breaks down I will have to find the right person to fix it and haggle over price etc. I am going to have to get a job instead of being a housewife my hubby keeps saying you dont have to work but I am getting to the point I need to do something just to get out and meet new folks to pal around with have more friends then what we have gotten since we moved to fl in 2003.