OOC; Yeah my first.

"Most of my life has been about pleasing people. It's been about being there when others needed me and making other people happy. Sure there were a few times where I stopped and did something for myself but mostly it has been about other people. That might be the reason so many people think they can just walk all over me. I don't think that I can blame anyone but myself for that, but I'm sick of it. I'm sick of having to sit around and watch people get handed things while I sit in the background doing just as good of job without the recognition. What can I do though? What can I do to make people see that I'm more than just that one girl. I realize my impact here has been shallow but I've done great things and what do I get for it? A whole lot of nothing. Honestly I hate Scott for what he did to me on Hangover, hitting me with that chair so I won by DQ. It's just another thing for people to point out and pretend I don't have talent. That's what it is though, pretending. It's pretending like I'm less than I am and it's just not working out for me anymore. Sure I got a title shot but it doesn't even matter everyone just sits back and they think oh a match between Scott Addams and Gypsy this should be interesting. I sound whiney but I don't give a shit this match means more to me than any match I've had so far in BUD and I refuse to let it slip through my fingers. I refuse to let people push me into the background because I want to win this match. I know it doesn't mean a damn thing to anyone else right now but it's going to mean a whole lot more once I get into the ring. People can talk all they want say that I don't know what I'm doing pretend like I have no experience but the truth of the matter is I have a whole lot more than they think I do. I haven't been in BUD for long but I have traveled the globe and wrestled in many places. I have more heart than a lot of people could imagine, but what does it matter right? It probably won't mean a damn thing until I get that title in my grasps but will it even matter then? What exactly has to happen for you to see that I am as good as I put off. You see I've had a whole lot of ups since signing the contract so why is it then that people only see my two losses and say that I'm not good enough? It's pathetic really the stretches most people will go to in order to make someone look invisible. Maybe it's my fault, maybe people will say it's my fault but you know what I would never do that to myself. I'm out there trying my hardest I stay focused in every single one of my matches so why then do people pretend like I don't. Why are excuses being made against me? I am sick of it. At Moment of Silence you are going to see someone new come out into that ring, it's still going to be me but you can damn sure bet I'm going to have a new kind of attitude. I'm not going to play it easy for my opponents or for myself. I'm not going to sit back and watch Scott and Gypsy rip each other apart, which is bound to happen, I'm going to make my own name in this match and show why I should be there. Not just because Scott was too afraid to get pinned by me, but because I have the talent to be there. I see that people have doubts, and I understand it. BUD is full of people that don't want to let go of the past, but it's time. It's time to let go of the past, let go of what has already been done and make room for people to make new memories. The future is what I am and the future is where I want to be. Maybe that's because I haven't been apart of BUDs past but that doesn't matter, people need to see that there is a ton of new talent filtering through the doors and they need to be given their shot too." Kit let out a deep sigh and she shrugged her shoulders.