Dear brothers and sisters....sometimes it feels odd to 'go back' and talk about where we've come from. But at the same time if we don't the intensity and the depth of what we, by God's mercy would have never been able to do. This is my testimony to His love.
At the age of 8 my Dad left us. My brothers had been so horribly abused by him, therefore my oldest brother began to molest me, it continued until I was 14. No one believed me or would help me, during those days that knid of thing was very hush hush. Due to his threats by the age of 12 I had bleeding ulcers. And was very afraid for the safety of my siblings. He went into the military, thankfully. Then...men brought into our home by my mother tried the same...I later found out that she new but had no idea how to make it stop. So I felt as though I was not worth saving. Years past...my first 'real' relationship...well...he beat me alot, almost blinded me from one of those beatings. left him, the next relationship last 5 years...when he began to abuse me, I tried to get away along with my new baby...I was stabbed, held at gun point for 3 hours, and much more. I went into hiding...finally married a man that made me feel wanted, loved, as well as my child. He died. I ended up with a drug habit. And began stripping to pay for it. After leaving my 'job'....I met a man, a real man. He loved me and my child. Together we've found our way to the One true Savior. But before I finally gave up the drugs I overdosed in my husbands arms twice. No pulse, blue,...I was gone. He did CPR and then began to pray, holding me and begging God not to take me. Well...here I am, able to tell you and others the truth of what can happen. Sometimes when you overdose you may not have total use of your limbs, aor your mind, etc. God reached way below the bottom for me. I often wondered why. Last July....actually July 14th my daughter passed away. Leaving behind a brand new baby. A baby born 2 months premature. He weighed 2.5 lbs. and was 10 in. long. This baby is with me and my husband, he is now 20lbs. 28 in. long...and the Drs. say his 'adjusted age'...well... he is reight on track, not behind at all. God is a mighty God, a loving God, and a merciful God. And I know now why I was allowed to live. And I will forever give thanks to our Lord Jesus. You see my daughter is with Him and I will one day hold her again. I am grateful for what time He gave me with her. And I give thanks for every waking hour.
Donna
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