Let me begin by saying that in my lifetime not everything has been peachy however I feel that I have to much to say and not enough time to cover everything. My parents are divorced but both have encouraged me to seek after God and both parents are happily married to other people now.

I have been going to church on and off my whole life I still remeber the first verse I ever learned. John 3:16 For God so loved the world he gave his only begotten son for whosoever believeth in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

This being said I never really spent much time on even thinking about whether or not God was real until I was about 20 years old when a friend of mine gave me a book called the Celestian Prophecy , I still think its a great book but I cant remeber the author at this time.I did alot of drugs and drinking, I do need to add this I am drug free and alcohol free for some years now, during these younger years of my life. Any how I read this book and thought about the fact that we have souls.some time after this I heard a voice say something to me I cant remeber what exactly it was but I thought it was bad and instantly, I relized that even if it was something evil or good one thing was for real there must be a God and let me tell you there was such a happy feeling i can not even begin to describe it. So I jumped head long into the idea. I grabbed the Bible up and started in the book of Genesis with a new certainty that hey God is real . Well 2 or 3 verses into the bible my head started pounding with a migraine I could not beleive and a calm voice said to me its trying to stop you from reading this so I plowed thru a few more verses and it stopped.

Leaping ahead I continued to read the Bible and talked to God as I went however seeing that I started in the beginning and was reading straight thru God had it in his mind to remind me of an important fact that I wasnt thinking about. I was driving my car dont remeber where to or from and all of a sudden I had a vision It was Jesus Christ on the cross the image was exact in detail down to the very grains of wood on the cross it was a kind of grim feeling but yet there was light there and then I felt a stabbing pain through my heart like I had been stabbed. Well of course this changed my veiw of everything more then a little bit, I was even more determined to continue to read the bible.

As I continued to read with a great amount of certainty that God was very real in my life I experienced other great things from God but I will try to fit them in as I remeber some of them but I havent been able to find where I wrote them down in the correct order that things happened One of the more profound moments I do remeber was working at a gas station and the store being empty I heard the most beautiful voice, now I am going to try to explain a little. I was standing erect but it was as if all that I am my thinking, feelings was crushed down to my knees. She said " Mary Magdalene giveth care and taketh no offense." My whole body tingled and felt like being wrapped up in a velvet blanket thru my entire body ,this feeling faded away over the course of several hours.

I feel now is a good time to interject this to all you believers that have never seen the likes of what I am talking about do not think that I am a good person for I have done more then one mans share of evil deeds. Nor because you havent seen does it mean that God doesnt care for you as much for I tell you this in all honesty that when these visions faded away they left a void so deep in there wake, nothing in our world which we live in can compare to the gifts God has for us. But keep pursuing after spiritial gifts from the Lord.

Ok onward Having read thru much of the bible I went on what I would call the world wide church chase now I went to churches here and there of many denominations seeking more of God and he showed to me in another vision , In the middle was God and I stood in between a circle of churches that surrounded the Lord. And I was running around in this circle trying to find the Lord but he never moved and I never could find him. He gave me the answer not in words but in knowing that he is always the same and we dont have to run around looking for him because he is right there Listening for us to talk to him, I am in no way trying to tell people any church is right or wrong as the Lord said a divided house soon falls how can he divide the churches who all profess their faith in him. I am dismayed by the fact that many dont agree one with another. I truly believe that being with people of faith is most benificial to your walk with Christ.

So my church chase being put to an end I spent some time talking to the Lord. I sat on a lawn chair in my friends backyard, It was a beautiful day and I was telling God how happy I was to be in this beautifull world, When about 5 or 6 feet infront of me Jesus Christ appeared now he looked solid but he was made entirly of light he was sitting cross legged on the ground with his hands in front of him praying. Now even though he was glowing of a warm golden light his heart was glowing even brighter then the sun but it did not hurt to look and it was radiating out thru his being even past it and there was streaks of light coming out of it like a rainbow with no bow, to this day I am dismayed by the fact that neither did I open my mouth and speak at him nor throw myself to the ground and kneel before him, no I only had one thought it was dont move or he will disappear. I have no Idea how long I sat there. Minutes or an hour I couldnt tell even then.

Well after that I did see a few more things and I did leave a few out on purpose. But over some amount of time my fire died out somewhat and some how my bible ended up on a shelve after moving a few times. There was plenty of ups and downs but Recently as the war we just went thru God woke up the sleeper in a matter of speaking I havent quite figured out what he wants of me yet but he touched my heart and started it ablaze with the craving for his presents in my life that I had before perhaps even more so. That is in a way how I ended up here , I have not lied in this in anyway that I can think of other then perhaps playing down my own sinfull nature, I do understand how people could think that I was lying but its no consequence to me if I be called a liar for telling the truth. Better still you believe this that God in his Mercy has showed these things to me a sinner, perverted and vile in nature and is willing to show you even more then that. Peace be with you all. Craig