My Story

My Name is David Azbell, I am 41 years old and live in Phoenix,Arizona. I have 5 Children and 5 grandchildren. I have been married and divorced 4 times. I am a sinner. I Have been convicted of a crime, tried to commit suicide,have lost several family members do to death including my Dad, been in jail, just a brief summary of my life. I will get more into my story as I go along. I hope that through my story you will be able to find that God can change your life. That through Jesus Christ you can be made a new person. That you can be washed clean and a new life will be yours.

Along the way I have made some poor choices and some good choices. I am not really sure where to start but I am going to jump in to the final stages that brought me to realize that I was down a very dark, deserted road ALONE. I met a wonderful woman And feel deeply In Love with her. That was the best thing I had done in years. But then through the choices I made after that I would lose her and that is what finally broke me down to nothing. I am this empty shell of a man just wondering in the wilderness Not knowing where I am going to end up. I know I have to explain this all and I will, I just wanted to set the scene for where I am today.

So let me get started with the choices I have made since I met the most wonderful, Beautiful woman I know. I was terminated from my Job in March of 1998 And eventually was charged with theft by that company. I looked for work for a few months but could not find anything. Then one Day My Fiancée suggested that we take her Sister and Brother - in - law up on their offer and move to Tennessee. So we packed up some stuff and headed out. Now I made a choice at that time to leave My Children, My Family, and my home behind.This would turn out to be my final Good-Bye to my Dad as he passed away while I was in Tennessee. A choice that was hard to make and proved to be even harder as the months went by.

Now In December of 1998 I was arrested on a Fugitive warrant from Arizona. The judge in Tennessee set my bond at 25,000.00. Which meant I had to find some one willing to put up 2,500.00 to a bondsman to post my bond. We had only been in Tennessee for a few months and did not know a lot of people, and I had only been on my job for a few months also. I was doing well and advancing in the company and thought for sure that it was all over. Well we had met my fiancées brother - in- laws Aunt and Uncle and had started attending church with all of them. I had an opportunity to talk to Dee Dee on the phone from Jail and she offered me prayer at that time. Now I had started to have a little faith at that time but not complete faith. But I said I would like to pray and we did just that. We prayed that God would provide for my family and me. And within a couple of days God provided me bond and I was released from Jail. I also was able to return to work with a promotion. I was so blessed by God and did not even take the time to say thank you. Oh I still went to church, still prayed and still tried to do what I thought God wanted me to do.

Then On January 17,1999 as I was getting ready to go to work I received a phone call from Phoenix. My Family called to inform me that My Dad had just had a heart attack and passed away. As I sat there on the couch I was in so much pain I was numb. I had no money to be able to come home for the funeral. So I prayed a little and then I called work. I called to tell them I would not be in. Then I received another blessing I did not even think about at the time.My employer allowed me to get an advance on my check to come to Arizona. So My Fiancée and I left the next morning to fly back home. Now we only had enough money for both of us to get out there and not back to Tennessee, but we were told to have faith and it would be taken care of. So we left the kids with her sister and Brother - in- law and off we went. Now we were there a week and when we left had no idea how we would get back. But again we prayed , and others prayed and we were provided the money to return to Tennessee. And again I never realized that God had provided and that he was in control of it.

Then In March of 1999 I was arrested on the warrant once again from Arizona. I sat in jail in Tennessee for three weeks or so before they finally came to get me. I prayed and I cried out to God. When I got back to Arizona They set my bail at $1,600.00 and again God provided. Not only did he provide by setting a lower bail then I had been told it would be. I was told the Bond was going to be $80,000.00 but he provided the bond money for me. And again I did not really even thank God for this. I think I just took it for granted. Which is wrong to do in any relationship, as I was soon to find out.

In March of 2000 My Legal battle was over and Life began again. Then on March 31, 2000 My Grandmother passed away. Again I prayed, I read the bible and asked questions. I just never seemed to seek the right answers.

Now for the final straw that broke me and the journey back to where I am now. In August I lost My Job then in September I lost my apartment and most important the woman that I am In Love with. So I am now here alone and wondering why. So I started to read the bible again. I started to pray more and started asking for Gods Guidance. But I still felt alone and empty. I felt like my soul had passed and left my shell here wandering in the wilderness. I then heard a sermon about the Church in the wilderness and how Gods people wandered for forty years. And then I also ran across a scripture Luke 18:27 Jesus replied, "What is impossible with men is possible with God."
And I realized that even though I could not deal with my problems God could. And as it says in Revelation 1:8 "I am the Alpha and the Omega," says the Lord God, "who is, and who was, and who is to come, the Almighty."
I started to really find some answers. So I stood on faith and asked God to guide me.

I am still In Love with the woman who left me and miss her very much. But I have put that in Gods hands and I am standing on Faith that he will do what is right for me. One Day as I was reading the 22nd Psalm I realized that God was not so far off. That he had not deserted me but it was I who had deserted him. As it says inPsalm 22 verse 6 " I am merely a worm, far less than human, And I am hated and rejected by people everywhere.�?/B>
It was then that because I was feeling that way that I had to come back to God and all his promises. You See I realized that God doesn’t break promises and I was there in this spot through my choices. I had deserted God. Oh but what a wonderful God he is. A God that loves us so much he sent his only begotten son to die on the cross for us. I knew all I had to do was drop to my knees and confess to God my sins and he would forgive. He was standing there with his arms opened wide waiting for me. What a wonderful God. When Man would not forgive and give a second chance God was waiting to do just that. I am slowly starting to learn how to hear God instead of just listening.

In is now the year of 2003 and I was again Mourn with my family the loss of a loved one. In February my Uncle on my Mom’s side of the family passed on. I served four months in jail in 2002. And now a week after my Uncle was buried My Mom’s other brother is due to have a mass removed from his brain. As I go along I will have more of my story and how God has saved me and why I know he will also save you. So you see no matter where you are today. No matter what choices you have made in your journey. No Matter how far away you are from God, He is there waiting at the door for you to open it. He has not deserted you. He loves you and he has great things planned for you. All you have to do is take the step.Remember the Lord is there waiting with open arms. And he loved us so much that he gave is only begotten son.