I post this at any Christian site that I come to -- why?? Because each of us has a testimony to share the story of how we came to know the Lord. You never know who maybe coming across the boards and don't know the Lord they may happen to read it and be dealing with a similar situation as you have... by hearing that by coming to the Lord you had be saved from what ever it may have been. I really do beleive that if hadn't met the roommate (Rachel) that I did, that brought me to a Christian meeting that I would not be here today... before she became my roommate I had so much going on... yes it did take over a year after meeting her before I came to know Christ... but she started by giving me what I needed the most at that time and that was someone to be a friend to me.

Blessings to all my Brother and Sisters in Christ.
Jenny

I grew up in the Catholic Church. My mom was quite involved and so I naturally became involved with Church things like Sunday school and fund raisers. This all ended when I was about 10 and we moved to a small town and had problems finding a Church. After trying for about two years we just gave up and stop going.
My life was really hard for me through out high school and first couple of years at college. In high school I had a small group of friends but I never did that much with them outside of school. It was always hard for me to hear about the things they did on the weekends with each other.
I don't know why I was never called or invited to join in with them. I know they were not mad at me, but for some reason I was always left out. Others saw and knew how great of friends we were at school. In my junior year of high school I got my first boyfriend, I was so happy to have someone that would call me and be able to hang out with and go to movies and such.
Our relationship only lasted about a year. We ended up having different interest during our senior year and couldn't find the time to be with each other, for the last couple months of our relationship it didn't seem like we really had one, so I broke up with him. It didn't seem like it would make that much of a difference if we were going out or not.
Also at this same time my friends and I were spending less time talking and doing things at school. I was feeling like I was alone and that no one cared for me. My senior year of high school, no one came to my graduation open house, I didn't have anyone to go to the Prom with, and most people didn't know what my plans for college were.
That summer I was thinking that it wouldn't make a difference if I was in this world any longer. I was so depressed, didn't have anyone to talk to, and didn’t think anyone cared about me. I had gone as far as having a plan of committing suicide and writing a note to my parents. I was able to get through the summer with out caring out this plan.
My first year of college I became really good friends with a person on my floor in the dorms. We did just about everything together, went shopping, to movies, and just plain hung out. Our relationship really wasn't that real, I had been telling her lies about my past, making it sound like I had good friends in high school. I had been making up stories about the things we would do with each other. As it can happen with lies, I couldn't keep track of everything I told her and she found out that I had been lying to her. This ended our relationship and once again I was back to thinking that no one cared about me.
Not only did I lose her as a friend but since we had a lot of mutual friends I also lost them as friends. I lost all the friends I had which was just a few and was back to being alone and thinking no one cared about me.
This caused me to slip back in to my state of depression. This time it was even worse because I was away from home, so I was even feeling like I didn't have my parents love. I started talking over the counter mood enhancement pills to try to get better, a long with sleeping pills to calm my mind and be able to sleep. I ended up becoming addicted to the sleeping pills.

Towards the end of my sophomore year I was able to make a couple of friends. At the beginning of my junior year of college one of those friends invited me to go to a meeting of Intervarsity Christian Fellowship, I went mainly because they had free pizza and Pop. but I got so much more out of it than that.
I learned a lot from that first meeting a decided to go back next week. I continued to go each week, I was able to learn so much more about God. At the time this was more important, but I was able to get some really good and true friendship out of it. I was still having some of my depression problems and addictions. I was thinking I'm praying for God to take these things away, but He must not want me to cause it's not working.
Becoming involved with Christianity again wasn’t easy for me because of my dad. He was afraid that by joining a Christian group they would put ideas in my head and cause me to do things that I wouldn’t normal do, in a bad way. He was actually thinking that the groups were like cults
When I would go home for weekends I would end up hiding things from him, like not letting him see me read the Bible and only listening to Christian music with headphones on. I would not mention things with him that dealt with Intervarsity, because when I would he would get mad that I was still involved and going against what he wanted. This meant that I telling my parents very little about what was going on in my life and at times even lying about things to them.
The summer after my junior year of college I had a desire to seek Christ even more. I started reading the Bible. I got involved with Chi Alpha ministries by joining prayer walks during the summer. I probably drove the Chi Alpha pastor crazy by e-mail him almost every day with questions I had about Christianity, but it was a way for me to learn and figure things out.
I also started going to Church and Sunday school. It was in July of 2001 that I was able to say a prayer and ask Jesus into my heart. Just by being involved with the Christian group and making a few friends I was able to being to over come my depression. It wasn’t until after I gave my life to Christ that I was able to be completely out of my depression stage. It was about a month until I was able to over come my addiction.
By joining both Chi Alpha and Intervarsity I had gotten to know so many people and have made some really good friends who I know care about me and have given me a reason for living.
But the most important relationship that I have gotten is the on that I will always have and that is the one I have with our Lord and Savior.
God works in such mysterious ways. I was shown God's love by going to a meeting for free pizza and a year later I got a relationship with God.

ps... I know in this testimony it says that I was saved from depression but as a few of you might know i have relapsed and have fallen back into depression.... but this time I know with out a shadow of doubt that the way to get out of it is to hand it over to God and let him do his work.