With hesitation, tears, and eyes that had always whispered to me that you loved me, you opened the

dresser drawer. Trembling hands moved your things until you found the yellow 8 and 1/2 X 11 Manila

envelope. Little hearts covered the envelope with a picture of 2 stick people, surrounded by a heart

and under them was your name! Against your wishes, you agreed never to open the envelope...unless...

unless I had passed away!

 

When you returned to your favorite chair and had sat down, you opened the envelope as tears fell from

your eyes. Carefully you sat the smaller envelope on your lap, and placed the other things on the coffee

table. You took a deep breath and wiped your eyes, and unfolded the love letter that I had wrote to you

for just this moment.

 

My Dearest Darling:

 

If you are reading my thoughts at this moment, then that means that "I was called home before you were".

I wish we had had more time to spend together...more time to love each other... and more time to shares

that needed "I Love You's"! I know that your tears are falling baby and I wish I were there to wipe them

away and kiss your lips! I knew that one day I would pass away, the only thing not certain was how or

when. I didn't want to pass away and miss that last chance to tell you what you have meant to me...to

express in my sentimental ways, that you will be deeply missed.

 

I can only offer you what I share within these pages, to take you back to special moments we shared

together, and let you feel the same magical feleings that you made me feel. Please do not be sad! I know

inspite of my words you will be sad. But i have to try anyways love! Enclosed are some photos of you

and me, and some things that were special to me. I've also enclosed some love poems, never before read

by you! So much I want to say. Most of all I wish somehow, some way that I could hold you one last time!

To kiss your warm lips, one last time would be nothing less then heaven for me.

 

I've also enclosed a very special love letter for you to read when loneliness trys to surround you. It is

packed with the memories of the best moments we shared together. I want to take this special moment to

tell you thank you for the three special gifts you gave to me endlessly. You gave me life, you gave me

laughter and you gave me love. Without you, I would be simply a empty shell, a wanderer, a lost soul on

the road of life. You became my haven, my sanctuary, my one place where I could leave all the pressures

and stresses of life behind when wrapped within your arms.

 

You were there to catch me when I fell. You were there to stand in my shadow when I succeeded in

anything, and your smile could always turn my frown upside down. You were there to listen, to cuddle, to

kiss me unselfishly, to accept my imperfections, my faults, yet you never once threw something in my face.

You shared love and taught me what love was really like. You took the time to do those little things that in

my heart and mind, made me feel I was the love of your life! In return I gave to you every ounce of love

and then some.

 

When obstacles blocked our way, we stood at each others side. We never let frustration turn one heart

against the other. In some way...each of us knew that life was too short to squabble and bicker over those

things that break couples up! I think what I loved most about you...was that you tempered your judgment

with compassion and that compassion was felt and seen in all you said and did. It was those little things

unsaid that said so much about the person you were.

 

Things like a touch, a look, and the sound of your voice. How I miss you my darling. I can't tell you how

many times I stopped writing this good-bye letter to you, because my tears made it impossible to see the

lines to write upon. But I did get to say all the things I wanted to say.. and in doing so, I hope you will

always feel loved by me, as the years come and go. The ties that bind two hearts shall never be broken and

I thank you with all my heart for choosing me to be the one you would love.

 

Be strong my love...you must for one day we will see each other again. Until that time, look ahead and reach

for the stars, just as I have always encouraged you to do. Look back on what we shared together, and draw

upon those memories for strength when things seem like they are falling around you. Perhaps from time to time  

you'll sense my smile, my touch? If I can be near, I'll do my best to be there if I see you cry. Just close your

eyes and open your arms sweetheart. Let me hold you in the same way that always released your sigh!

 

I love you Darling,

 

 

Raymond.