In my dreams love feels like I am whisked away to a magical world where everything I have ever

dreamed possible is possible! They are loving, warm, kind, nurturing, they listen, they laugh, they

cuddle, they kiss, they are the shoulder I lean on! They make the world seem much nicer, problems

smaller, and when I feel sad, they notice the look in my eyes. I can see they are concerned, I can

hear their voice seek to comfort me. In my heart they will always be my sanctuary.

 

But it's hard to believe that what I see other's take for granted, also awaits me in my future. I see

other's walking hand in hand, I see them exchange that magical kiss that makes me feel jealous!!!

I can't help to notice when I see them hug, I can't help to see the way their hands caress! I know

what I want! I know what I would give, to feel loved! But everytime I muster the courage, to open

the door to my heart, I am disappointed!

 

They only seem to want pleasure for a night! I want pleasure for all my nights to come. I want

companionship, comedy, committment, that I am enough for them to be happy. I want to be

accepted for who I am, not for the things I am not!!!! I want them to listen to me, to be my equal,

not my boss!!!! I want appreciation for my abilities and accomplishments! I want to kiss and

cuddle, not shared in small quanities. I want to be immersed in tenderness. I want their touch to

be magical!!!

 

And in return for all they can give to me, I would pledge to give the same in return! I don't want to

feel the joy of being loved for a little while! I want to spend all of my days knowing that I am the

source of the joy within their heart. I don't want to die alone. How foolish people are to want to

take from me for a moment that which I have saved for that one special person. I have pride, I have

respect, I have dreams and they are precious to me. My dreams are something no one can take away

from me!

 

Love is worth the wait, I feel that so deeply, but why must I wait for so long? Life will always be

taken by me, one step, one day at a time! To go faster will only make me stumble and fall. I hate

disappointment, I hate to feel I have been used. So until I do take that chance, until I find that

courage, I will wait in my dreams, for you to return and comfort me. 

 

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