It's been too long since someone's held me; I'd forgotten what shivers felt like, as
your warm lips teased my neck! My arms pulled you closer, so much closer, so close,
I could feel your heart beating against mine. As our lips touched, I felt
electricity, oh my God!!! I want more I told myself, I want it all! I want to feel
alive again! I want to feel needed, wanted and craved in all the ways that make love
as magical as romance novels I read!
                                                                                                              
You took my breath away from the moment we touched, the moment we kissed, as I moaned,
you whispered it was okay! I have never felt such peacefulness within my soul. In
that split second, it seemed to last forever, I told myself, I was so damned lucky! I
was nervous, shy, insecure, and oh yes, tongue tied! I worried about what to say,
when to say it, and worried that all the words would come out wrong! But I did take
that chance, that risk, and in time, you made me laugh to discover that it wasn't a
risk at all for either of us.
 
In a world held tight by misconceptions, and lies, of false promises, and tears that
have stained my pillow more then my fair share, there is also hope! Hope that I would
be accepted with all my imperfections, weaknesses, and opinions that at times differ
from yours. But in the midst of doubt, you didn't give up on me, you saw, I hope, a
diamond in the rough, simply in need of polishing, yet overlooked by so many.
 
As your lips traveled across my body, exploring, you delighted me to the end of all
that I have dreamed. You are love, laughter, patience, happiness, trust; you are the
one I give my heart and soul too! The ceiling became the fourth of July above our
bed as you took my breath away! I clinged to you as if all my tomorrow's depended on
it, and within your eyes that made me melt, I truly felt you believed I was the one
for you. How silly I felt now, looking back to the first day I looked up and saw your
smile. A smile of kindness and innocence.
 
You had to feel that same insecurity, you had to, or did you realize, from just one
glance, that it was not chance or luck, but instead, destiny? At this moment, I was
no longer earthbound, I was free, free to travel to the moon, free to touch the
stars, safe within your arms. There is no greater high, then to be held, cuddled,
kissed and caressed, and hear the words... "I love you with all my heart". Love
though is never as powerful spoken, then as when two feel it in heart, body mind and
soul.
 
Time stopped for us, as I just lay there, gazing into love swept eyes, eyes that
danced like diamonds, caught in the rays of sunshine. For so long I dared to dream
that what other's held onto so tight, what they treasured in the coolness of the
day, and the heat of passion, would one day be a part of my world. The moment when
the joy of love, makes loneliness retreat into the darkness! There are no words
right now, I whispered to you that can explain what you have given to me, making me
feel complete.
 
All you did was smile, for no words were needed to be heard. With just your finger
tip, tracing a path to your favorite places, you sent goose bumps and tingles clear
to my soul, as I moaned and you whispered....shhhhhhh! Yet, at that moment, to my
shock, I saw sadness in your eyes, and a tear drop form and roll down your cheek.
                                                                                                                   
I caught your tear with my finger and asked, what had I done wrong to cause you to
cry? You looked at me giving me the best smile you could and simply said... "You
will soon awaken my love, and with the morning’s sun brightening this room, I will
fade into your memory.
 
By now, I cried too, and shook my head, holding onto you tighter then all the other
night's you shared my sweetest dreams! "You can't leave, you mustn't! Please don't
leave, I will die, I know I will"! I don't want the loneliness back, take me with
you, please I begged, hide me from the sun"! You sadly shook your head, and just
before I awakened, you whispered; "I will never leave you my darling...in the road
of life, we will meet again, and I promise, I will never leave your side. My love
will make the sadness of feeling alone and unloved beyond all I have shared with
you in your dreams".
 
You shared that last twilight breathless kiss that made me hold you so close I felt,
this time; you'd take me with you, as your tears and my tears merged as one. That
was the moment; you were gone, gone till my next dream, as the first morning rays
of sunshine awakened me from my slumber.
 
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