When you whisper in my ear my darling, I close my eyes and feel shivers go up and down my spine! Line

by line to caress me with the feelings I have missed in a friend, companion, lover, companion and mate! I

know you so well it scares me! I have never touched your lips, but I know the magic of your kiss! I have

never felt your caress upon my screen, but you know just how to take me to the stars and further still!

 

I want to believe in love and I know distance keeps us apart! As a tear drop begins to fall I tremble as I

tell myself..."Why are all the nice ones living so far from my arms"? Is it fate, bad luck or Murphey's Law

that rules the web from chatroom to chatroom for the lonely seeking to merge from a "Me to a We"? It

can't be my destiny to feel the most important part of my life is missing! I don't want them for lust! I want

them to be all that I have missed. I want to feel I am complete! I want to feel their kindness, the softness

of their voice each morning. I want to see love in their eyes for me. I want to feel that if I need a hug, a

kiss, or just loving arms to hold me, that they'd never deny to me closeness!

 

But I also know that chatrooms are also filled with names, and pictures that aren't always what they pretend

to be! It makes me angry to fall for their lines, leaving my heart wide open for them to see all that I could

offer them in time, only to realize one day that I was played a fool! The fall back to earth is indeed a long fall.

I guess some can call me an optimistic pessimist because I believe deeply in myself and the happiness two

can share if they are unselfish. But I also am a pessimist about meeting the lover of my dreams, who accepts

me, imperfections and all. Someone who one day might whisper in my ear as I hold them..."I would have

waited for eternity just to be loved by you"!

 

So for know... there is only today..this moment and I will accept your smile and pray that you do not hurt me.

It would crush me and make me retreat into a shell that reluctantly is my home. Cupid will find two people if he

wants too in some of the most unusual and unlikely of places if ones eyes,mind and heart is paying attention.

It's easy to look at the path we have walked in life, looking at shattered dreams, laying on my hearts floor and

shout, "I will never trust again"! But to do so, only closes my hearts door and condemns me to a life of

loneliness and I know I deserve better.

 

So to you the reader I wish you safe passage from loneliness to happiness, if it is love you hope to find one

day. It's a hard road to walk upon seeking the person of your dreams when the road has detour signs, road

closed, U-Turn, or bridge out signs up ahead. It means we have to be cautious, patient and never lose sight

of the qualities we possess and hope to share one day!