With tears in my eyes I look at
my hearts door
The nails of heartache have kept
my heart boarded for so long
Protecting me from the fear of what
might happen if I took a chance
Protecting me from betrayal, from
being used and tossed aside
But I also realize, as nervous as I feel
chances must be taken
They must be taken if I ever plan to
have what I see other's have
I Can't help but notice couples in love
I see the magic in their eyes
I hear it in the way they whisper to
each other, the way they kiss
I see they way they hold each other
I see the way they caress
A caress so gentle, it should be a
crime to sigh that loud
But I can't ignore that every time I took
that chance, someone hurt me
Taking from me, using me, simply to
toss all that could have been theirs away
It isn't fair I shout, it isn't fair, why must
I have to struggle to meet someone nice?
I nailed the door to my heart shut, not to
keep other's out, but to keep me in
Within the darkness of my heart, I feel
safe, no one can hurt me
No one can look at the floor and see the
shattered memories, I see each day
I want 2006 to be a year of change, I
want to love and be loved
I want to trust, I want to believe that
everything I could offer is enough
I want to believe that someone is out there
just as nervous as I am
I can't be the only one left, who hides from
what they crave the most
With tears in my eyes, I pry and pull each
nail in the door out
When the last nail falls upon the floor, I
set the hammer on the table
Slowly, ever so slowly, I turn the knob as
I pull the door open, just a inch
The warmth and brightness of the sun fills
my heart, as shadows of pain retreat
There is much cleaning to do in this heart
of mine, before I can let someone in
I dare to dream of holding their hand as
we walk from room to room
Letting them see the best of qualities I have
to share with them in time
As well as letting them see the damages done
to my self-esteem, requiring their patience
They say that all good things are worth the
wait, that love is worth the risk
I know it, but it doesn't make it any easier
Oh, My God, I miss another's kiss!
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