Melissa, u shouldn't feel bad about feeling that way!  Been there myself. Sometimes i feel like i need to get out and make something of myself b/d i'm "just a mom!"  I need a break and Chris drives me crazy!!!!  I get tired of being a mom and a wife!  I think everyone does at one time or another!  But think of all that u do for them and how much they love u!  If u weren't mom, who would be??  Ur a great mom and hang in there, things will get better! 

Melissa, do not feel badly about your feelings.  I can kind of understand what you mean.  While I myself am not there, my own mother went through the same thing.  She never did anything about it and ultimately ended up leaving for a while and things were really rocky w/our family for a long time, especially after dad passed.  I think that if she had recognized her own feelings earlier on, things would've gone a lot differently.

 

I'm not saying you're feeling exactly the way my mom did or that the situations are the same, but hopefully its something you and Scott can work on together and help your ralationship grow.  I hope i haven't overstepped any boundaries!

No Betsy I appreciate your take on things, and thanks to you and Amy.  I got married very young, not even two weeks after I turned 18.  Scott and I had only been dating for 4 months.  And I'm not saying I don't love him, it's just I'm in a rut and sometimes wonder if my life could've been different if I had waited to get married and have kids.  It's like my whole life is just slipping away.  I can't talk to Scott about any of this cause he will get all mad and jump to conclusions.  So for now I'm just gonna cope and hope things get better.  Thanks for listening.

I see what you mean, and i understand about not wanting to tell him  anything to make him jump to conclusions.  But hopefully now that the kids are in school and you and Scott get to spend a little time together when you meet for lunch occasionally, maybe it can give you all some time alone to rediscover things you love about each other.  I'm hoping for the best.

  always here to listen. 

Melissa hun I have those days also but that is when I get a mommys day out.  I have to or I get like that. I have to take the kids every whrere with me and Jay hardly does anything around the house unless it benefits him or its mowing the grass. So I go out shopping by myself or do something to benefit myself. Maybe you should try to find something to get into while the kids are at home with some ladies so oyu acan talk to adults. I'm sure you and Scott will get more aquanted with each other once the kids are gone . Then you can go on vacations and travel to se places you wnat to see. I'm sure you will both change over time and hopefully tht will spark things a little more. I would give yourself some time and hopefully things will work itself out. As your family would be lost without you.

Well Christy I won't lie, I thought about leaving earlier this week when this feeling was at it's worst.  I mean just literally walking right out the door.  I can't bring myself to do it though because I'd miss my kids so much.  So I'm gonna just sit with it awhile and hope for the best, thanks

sure jayne, send me a whole bunch, and some chocolate too, lol.  thanks girls, i mean it, i think i would've blown up this week if I hadn't finally said something, thanks for listening.

Hope u get to feeling better hun!