Janna I can very much imagine you would have those mixed emotions.
I can't say weather that would be stopping you falling or not but I am positive it will happen at just the perfect time.
I really hope you are not as sick this time if at all.
I don't think your silly either. To be honest I think when I fell each time i was like yay yay etc but then it hit me darn now i have to be sick and tired and fat and all that yucky stuff.
Still wishing you lots of ttc vibes.
How is your cycle? Was it anymore normal lenghth this month? or am i going to fast?