urrrrggggg

I wake up every morning and sometimes I just can't believe the shit that I have going on.  Yes I know here I go again same o...same o...but OH MY FREAKING GOD!  Who are these people in my life and what the hell???? I mean who do they think they are??? Why do they feel the world owes them so much???? Why is it always such a pitty party???? I just don't understand...I don't think I will ever understand.  How is it the thirty-something adults....ADULTS act like such immature children??? Didn't we all graduate from High School a long time ago????  At least I thought we did.  There are these people that are so self absorbed in their own selfish misery that they will stop at nothing to bring everything and everyone down with them.  They suck the life out of you.  They are this black cloud of misery and bitterness.  Why why why why do they waste their life...their chance to have a happy fullfilling life by spending time thinking of ways to hurt/get back at the people around them...no matter who it is....their kids....ex-spouses....i mean it's so insane to me. 

I have started a whole new beginning with myself this year.  I'm working on fitness and my health.  I am going to try new things....experience life....I'm 29 and have so much living to do.  I guess I'm at a point in life where I see and understand that its just too damn short to waste my time with people that arn't worth it.  Why be miserable????  Do I want to die tomorrow and had lived my last days on earth as this miserable, bitter, sad person??? NOPE!  I hope that someday this person will just freaking get over it.  Allow the kids to be happy.  Allow them to choose for themselves who they like or don't like.  Allow their ex to be apart of his kids life as much as possible no matter what the stupid ass papers say. Allow children to say hello to their step mother in public without the fear of getting in trouble.  Allow the bitterness and anger to go...to leave and be gone so that we all can start to MAYBE have some sort of normal existance with one another and maybe just maybe allow the kids to not be put in the middle.  In a perfect world adults work together to provide for the kids...teach them how to respect one another and others...teach them not to be hateful...that its not ok to hate and name call and belittle other human beings. Isn't it our responsibility to raise these kids as mature, responsible, caring, giving, kind human beings????  We are what they learn from!  Why teach them hate and anger????  Arn't we suppose to protect them from that?  I don't know I guess I'm just frustrated and I'm tired of living with all this hatred and bitterness and misery in my life and I'm ready for a new fresh start.  I'm ready for happiness, adventure, love and family. 

Have a Great Day Everyone!