my mind is a whirlwind of rushed thoughts and bitter-sweet emotion

can not seem to grasp one idea well enough to comprehend, nor make sense of it

trying to calm myself only tends to make matters worse

reaching out only to feel my grip on reality slipping further

longing to escape from what has become my self-made prison

hoping it is only a matter of time until they cease to exist once and for all

knowing that even the end can not quiet the confusion and uncertainty