Mamacat...
  
 Thank you for your thoughts...I lost my husband of 35 years 4 years ago this month.  I left a thought for you since I can empathize with what your feeling now.   I still feel that way.  My daughter has been an extreme problem especially since Bill left so every once in a while I just have to get it out abit.  I try not to do any drama on board but it sometimes just gets away from me.
  
 I hope you are doing better...I don't see how you can be...I can't seem to get on with it.
  
  Nancy 2