Hi Lexi,
I understand how you feel. I have days that I don't understand and just have to cry. It is okay to cry sometimes, you just have to let it out. I hug from my mom helps and we talk. I try to think of all the good things we have because of my moms illness.
I know that sounds strange but there is some good things in all things. It takes practice but when it becomes a habbit to look for the good, every thing gets easier to deal with.
Peace out,