Hello everyone....
Have you ever experienced a sudden 'clarity' of your mind and thought process?....like when the fog or mist starts to disappear and you can 'see' once again? It's so wonderful. I had that happen to me today. And I blame it on this computer!
I've come to realise that my brain has gotten more exercise in the last 6 months than it has in years....lol.... and it seems to be 'functioning' better....not a whole lot faster mind you.... lol...but definitely better.
There's something to be said for 'repeatedly trying....'. Eventually the brain will 'get it'..!!
What did my brain finally get? The fact that no matter what bad may happen.... it does not have to mean the end of being able to 'function' in the rest of the areas of my life.
I was sitting at a red light today, mind wandering aimlessly... and the usual casual thought about a terrorist attack... didn't bother me in the least. My thought was actually... 'Oh well... I'll still just keep on...' and I didn't even really finish the sentence in my head, because I was so surprised, and delighted not to feel the old heaviness, fear, or even dread about the prospect of something else happening.
You see, in the past years, when things would 'fall apart' in one way or another.... wether mildly or worse .... all the rest of me would just take on this fatalistic attitude of 'Why bother____'. Oh how it used to drag me down into a depression of a sense of 'hopelessness'. I tell you what.... that is a horrible place to go. It just feels so painful.
But something in my brain finally snapped... and suddenly.... I can see how it's not the end of the world when one thing falls apart. I mean, look at what happened after the WTC buildings collapsed and thousands of people died..... Basically.... nothing. They cleaned it up... and life went on. And if they can do it.... so can I, no matter how many times I have to start over cleaning up, and moving on....lol. You just keep on keeping on.
I've heard that sooooo many times in my life. But when you are at the bottom of the pit of life, or when you are buried beneath layers of rubble and debris from the messes life can create.... it's just not that easy to flippantly say that. You can barely think or move.... much less 'keep going'. It's a slow, slow process sometimes digging out of the mental and emotional piles that threaten to take your life at times.
You basically have two choices in life. Give up, or Keep trying. I've always leaned toward the latter. But at times... it just seems soooo dark, sooooo pointless, and you get soooo tired. It just seems to make more sense to give up, to stop hoping, stop dreaming, stop wanting, stop trying. But, I'm just not made that way. Because God is not made that way. And He's the core center of my being and my existence. So no matter how deep the despair sometimes took me.... it never buried me alive. (Awful darn close a few times... 
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And then suddenly... like today at the stop light.....the fog clears... and I can see the 'larger' picture of how things really are.... and I know I'll make it. And it's amazing how changed life is at that moment.
Will it cloud back up ..... of course. Will things go wrong, fall apart, fail, get messed up again.... of course... and always. That's just part of life. But when you come to a road block.... you just find another way to get to where you want to go.
You keep going. Even if you first have to build your own road to get there. You try again tomorrow, and next week, and next month. You keep going.
And every time you 'try again', you soon find you are a little smarter than the last time, a little stronger than the last time.... and the situation does not hurt as much as it did the last time. And you find that "I can" starts to outnumber "I can't".
I got all of that from a split second revelation at a stop light today. I hope it somehow helps you to also keep trying, keep going, and to not give up in the midst of the hard thing you may be going through, wether it's making a big life change.... or trying to figure out some new thing on your computer!! YOU CAN DO IT. 
Your brain will eventually 'get it' and be able to perform the desired function you are asking of it. After years of repeatedly mentally digging my way out from one thing after another, I'm living proof it's true.
It's not the end of the road. It's not the end of the world. It's just time to begin again, start over, and keep going. The fog will clear. And you will see your way through, or out.
God bless you, Grace 
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