Do you handle change well?   I don't.   But I'm learning.   Unfortunately I'm a very slow learner... because change has been the foundation of my life for quite some time... and I haven't gotten the hang of it YET!...lol.

It is said by some.... (not quite sure where the 'teaching' is derived from..).... that the same thing will keep happening to us over and over till we learn what it is that the repeated situation or circumstances is trying to teach us.   Have you ever heard that?   I find it to be true.   And I have found that the teacher of the lesson is very patient.. and will repeat the process in your life over and over and over for years... till you decide to finally wise up and "get it".  

Change keeps popping up pretty consistently so obviously there is something I'm NOT 'getting'...  could it be simply to ACCEPT it.. to Go with it.. roll with the flow where ever it goes?....   'cause I sure am not one to do that.  

I keep thinking in my head... "I just want to start "Here".. and then continue to proceed in a forward direction... without stopping till I get to where I want to go."    Is that desire all that unreasonable?   It must be... because I sure have not been able to live out that desire.   As soon as I get going in the direction I want to go.. something happens to cause me to either have to stop, change directions.. goals.. activities.... something new seems to constantly keep popping up to take my attention and focus away from the 'one' path I wanted to travel in the beginning.

I noticed that I have a similar attitude about 'starting/stopping'  with the game of racquetball.   I've never played a real 'game'.....  I don't like it.  What I used to like to do years ago when we first discovered the game. was just be alone in the coart... and see how long I can keep hitting the ball against the wall WITHOUT STOPPING.   When I would sit and watch my husband play an actual game with his friends it would make me exasperated that they had to keep 'stopping' and starting over with a new serve.   I want to just go, go, go....

Today.... I saw the same pattern in my thinking while driving down the highway coming back from a morning shopping spree.   Our local highway in town has the streetlights timed that if you catch them just right... you can go miles without stopping because you hit every green light.  I just happened to get into that time frame on the way home... and as I was cruising down the road at 50 mph.... I felt such a sense of peace.   I so loved being able to just keep going...non-stop... to my desired destination. 

And that's when I realised that it was indeed a 'pattern' in how I think and live.   I realised it was possibly also a very strong clue to just what the 'lesson' is I need to learn about dealing with CHANGES in my life....

Changes.    Changes constantly pop up along our life paths.... and they say... "You cannot do what you want to do.... because....you need to do this instead."    Sometimes it's as simple as being told as a child....that you have to stop playing and come in and eat... or do your homework... or take a bath and get ready for bed.    No matter the age... things happen that force us to stop doing the thing we want to do at that moment.. and change our patterns and actions and do something else.

Summer is over... time to make the change to Fall.    We have to let go of one life style.. and accept a different one.   We have to give up fun times in the sun and pool... and dress up for colder days and accept shorter days with less sun time.   The trees give up their leaves.   Winter is coming... bringing even more changes.

We changed where we live back in July.   I've changed some of my decorating ideas in the new apartment....out of necessity... since we changed from a 3 bed. apt. to a 2 bed. apt....    Our daughter and grandson moved in with us recently... bringing yet more changes to adapt to.  The people on the East coast and Florida have had drastic changes come into their lives with all the hurricanes and storms and destruction.   Their life 'path' came to a total stop.... and some changes had to be accepted and adapted into their lives... and not fun ones at all.

Currently there is no 'routine' to my life... there is not anything that is 'constant'.... nothing that is the 'same'.....  it changes every day lately.  

I keep wondering... if I "learn" whatever the lesson is ... that is causing these changes to happen... will life start to then calm down, and will the changes go away.?.. at least for a while..???   That would be so nice.  

I keep wondering if I have to stop "wanting" the changes to stop... before they can be stopped.?....  Is that the lesson?   Acceptance?

I love that the season's change.   I most especially love Fall and the changes the leaves go through.    Somehow... I've got to adapt and accept the current changing seasons in my own daily life as well.  

If you have any advice or ideas on how I can do that... please let me know.