...... As of about 9 a.m. this morning, in Judge Blackstock's fourth floor court office in Angleton, Texas .....  I became a single, unmarried woman.  

I no long have a husband.   I no longer am someone's wife.   I am no longer married.   I am no longer responsible for the care and upkeep of another adult.   I no longer have to do what someone else wants....by virtue of being tied to him by a piece of paper.  

Another peice of paper has given me the freedom to fully be only my own person, and to live my life my way, on my terms, and the freedom to make my own choices based only on what I want and need for myself. 

The crying is over.  The birth process out of the old life and into the new one has been completed.   The birth pains have ceased, and all is well in my new world.  I am at rest. 

June... I loved your words you wrote on the other thread...

I am ecstatic that you are now able to be who you are, attract who you will find happiness with and give of yourself to causes that deserve YOU.

Life is about change. Change is not good or bad....it is just change. When the world seems like a lonely place close your eyes and envision open arms of all who respect and care for you. We do. Then get out of the apt and spend time with likeminded people.

You will never be lonely when you put yourself out there.

I am so proud of you. This is a big life event. ANYONE can get married.....

Not everyone can get divorced, look the demon in the eye and take back her soul. . 

God will bless you Grace....HE will keep you safe and satisfied.... never forget that.

...not much else needs to be said... you covered it so very well, and I thank you so much for such an encouraging and uplifting message.

All of you have given me so much support and encouragement...

And while at times I'm sure it seemed like I wasn't hearing or listening because of the tears and pain I was in,... believe me,  I did hear, and I grabbed on to every message each of you wrote at one time or another.. and tucked them away in my spirit.

I made it through this with my sanity and my dignity because of all of  your support.... and I am more grateful than mere words  can ever express.

Yes... I did shed just a few tears today.   And those were the last.  

I have a wonderful new future to step into... and I'm going into it facing fully forward, and eager to move only forward.... without any glances back over my shoulder wishing for a past that no longer exists.   I held on to the end... just in case it might change, and just as a new baby is connected to the umbilical chord to the very end...till it is cut and the new life takes over.   The umbilical chord to my old life was cut today.    That part of my life is fully over.

June.... you phrased it so correctly.   I looked the divorce demon squarely in the eye, and took back my soul.  

And all I went through.... I did so stating the mantra to God that I wanted to succeed, to carve a path for other women and lead the way to their success as well.  It's never been just for me... I've always known that.   I've known since my 20's that my soul's destiny has been to reach out to other women.   I had to go through my path's experiences to have something to give to those coming behind me.   I dared not to fail... because I would be failing others as well.

On Sep 7th....  I started this journey.   On June 2nd I signed the divorce papers, gave them to him on June 8th, and on June 11th.... it is done.

Nine Months....  the new birth has been completed.

Now... the growth to becoming more of my authentic self begins.   Only time will tell exactly what that will be, and how long a process it will be.   Whatever lies ahead... I eagerly accept it and walk into it without hesitation and without fear.   Because with my Girlfriends... I can do anything!

I'm single... but not alone.   Thank you for being  here for me and with me.  I love you all dearly.