... I've accumulated quite a few remnants and bits and pieces of thoughts, feelings, ideas, dreams and hopes and beliefs over the last 55 years of my life.   Like fabrics for a a quilt , they are piling up and gathering around me continuosly these days, raising thier voices in ever-increasing unison, asking me to put them all together, and to fashion them into a new thing... called "my life".    

I have no pattern .... no specific outline to follow.   I have only the increasing need from within to start picking up the pieces and begin to put them together,  with faith that they will themselves know where to be joined to make the new thing.   I'm sure along the way I will end up ripping out a few stitches, taking out some things and learning a different way to go with the creation of what is yet to be.   Yet.... begin I must, even without really knowing for sure exactly what it is I am going to be putting together out of the remnants of my life.  

And so...  here I will record parts of the journey, as the pieces come to me and begin to be placed and a New Life begins to be formed.   It will take lots of thought work, lots of pondering to gain understanding of what is to be done.  So I'm sure this will be a long thread over time. 

Just like in making a quilt.... where one has to study the colors and patterns to know what is right and what does not fit... I will have to look closely at some things... disect it to get a clear idea of just what it is, so to know if it belongs or not.  A habit, a feeling, a belief...  these are the threads that will be used to hold the pieces together.    And to do the work with bad thread is a waste of time and effort.   I must weed out the bad and make sure I don't include it.

Dear Lord... bless the work you are calling me to do.  Grant me in your time the knowing of your will, your pattern, your design and help me to follow it precisely.   Help me learn to be obedient and submissive to your leading.  Be patient with me when I mess up and have to take out and redo things along the way.   You have a reason for the thing you desire to be made. Help me to honor your will over my own, and to work each day in faith in your knowledge and wisdom and purpose, that is always greater than my own.  In Jesus name I pray, Amen.