Native, I think I am still processing those events emotionally - one of those things learned with age is that grieving takes place at its own pace and can't be coaxed or cajoles. I appreciate your empathy greatly - thank you.  More I want to say about this, but these thoughts also can't be bumped out of noggin right now. :-) 

 

And please, feel free to jump in here anytime - cyber redoubt is not just for my meanderings.

 

On that Pepsi - caffeine after noon will guarantee insommnia for me too.  Pretty certain it's not psychological as sometimes I'll forget and have a coke in the afternoon, and tossing and turning at 3:00AM suddenly remember with chagrin.