Greetings MyPrecious Family,
Its Sunday morning.. arthur is watching his football (soccer) and moms gone to church.. i've had a nice shower and am now just letting my hair dry. After arthurs game, we're driving to Welland to look at a house..just a drive and look..not going inside. The listing on the internet showed a few inside pictures but no pics of the outside of the house. I had hopes of living in my own town..but was agreeable to Welland.. Maybe the stress of feeling closed in is getting to me and making me feel this way. We ARE living in close quarters here at moms. The weather person says we're going to have snow every day this week..and we got about a foot of the white puffy stuff during the night. I'm sure that what ever house athur feels good about will be a nice house. I'm not sleeping to much these days. My mind is just racing with thoughts and today I have a bit of a headache. Funny, i got an email from Tarot.com.. they send me a daily horoscope.. I started to read it..but when i read "don't compromise your identityj" .. or was it indiviuality.. I stopped reading it..Arthur and I love each other very much.. I so want for him to be happy..thats very important to me. Part of our problem is communication. I try to talk to him and tell him my thoughts, dreams opinions etc.. and at one time..when we first dated..he was always so attentive and it seemed that he valued my opinions, etc.. its not that way and hasn't been for a long time. I say something, he says I'm wrong..he goes to mom or his buddy and they tell him the same thing I did..and they're right.. I don't get it. He insistantly says he dislikes things that I say I like.. and I've tried reversing that.. saying that I liked something I didn't..and he still does it.. its so weird.. He knew when we first met that I love antiques..we'd go to the stores, we'd watch the antique shows in england and here..and when I was offered a lovely antique bed..for free..he said no.
I'm sorry.. I think I'm just trying to get my thoughts in order here.. i don't expect any advice..or anything.. and please don't get me wrong..my arthur is a very good man..I love him so much.. he's good to me in so many other ways. he really is thoughtful and generous and I believe that he loves me to.. I can't imagine my life without him and I don't regret marrying him. We've had a rough go.. I think that once we're in our own place..where ever that is.. we'll be able to get to REALLY know each other..and build our life together.. we just have some stumbling blocks to get over.. Okay.. I best be going..
Loveya All So Much..
celtie
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