Keep writing honey. It seems that you will see the deepest root that needs healing in your writings.
Let it all ramble out and then read it, sort it out in your mind and it will come to you just what you need to do to get past this.
You are a strong, beautiful human being with s much to offer others, but what have you offered yourself honey? Start with the basics. Let yourself love YOU.
Do that basic affirmation that is so simple yet so incredibly hard for most in the beginning...
Look into the mirror, right into your own eyes and say this three times, three times a day:
"I love you, (say your real name here hon), just the way you are!"
Brightest Blessings hon!
Rowan