This is exactly the same answer I keep getting. However, the real struggle is with myself.

 

I need to find some "inner" strengths to get in control of this situation.  My head is actually aching over it.  The dr said something that activated that 'mother's guilt' in my brain.  I have 2 children, disabled from mental illness.  This youngest child, I see as potentially the most ill, and I do know that she needs to be homeschooled.  I just wish I didn't have such a wishy-washy inclination.  I am truly an empath, which often complicates my life.  I can truly see everyone's side, and I have to find a little more confidence in myself.

 

I have been thoroughly tested, on so many levels, lately. 

 

You know that feeling, that you are completely worn out.  Well, that is where I am right now.  I also raised a lot of independent thinkers, which is a good thing, unless I want them to just do as I say, lol.

 

Thank you for your input.  I truly appreciate it.

Hon, you are very welcome.

 

Know that it is the energy that is making you tired as much as your daily life situations. I am getting emails from all over saying how tired he or she is feeling all the time from all the stress... If you can put some shields up, it might help a little bit.

 

And, trust me when I say I know just how that lack of cofidence feels ... when I first met one of my mentors, she asked me how I ever intended to truly help others until I helped myself. It was like a total wake up call at that time as I didn't know I could help myself first lol... I had been helping others all my life (same type of thing... seeing from all sides and intuitively knowing the right answer...  from the time I was a small child, adults would come to me for help) and never thought that I could help myself as well. I had always been told not to think of myself as that was a sin (my mother was a strict Catholic in her heart and my father had split from us with his pagan self when I was a little girl)... so I looked outward.

 

It really does make a difference when you get your balance and find your focus. You may lose it, temporarily, once in awhile, but to know it and know it will always be there, makes life such an adventure.

 

Find your feet before you home school your daughter. Make sure you have the strength to do right by her before taking it on. Then jump in with both feet and kick academia booty! Fly with it and know in your deepest recesses that you are doing the right thing!

 

I love what you said about your independent thinkers... felt the same way with my son lol... I couldn't believe the first time I said "because I said so" to him and he just looked at me and asked "why?" It was never a good enough answer, and he wasn't trying to be snotty, just needed to know the why to understand the need to follow the request. We had some great conversations as he was growing up.

 

Good night hon  

HOMESCHOOL-but remember, take time for yourself.  You tend to get overly wrapped up in your kids.