You are what you are and you aint what you aint.

 

Hey! A friend of mines mother died last night, and I feel really bad about it.

I can't make myself go to the funeral though, as I have been a little preoccupied with my own demise of late. It's really dragging me down, and about when I think I am getting over it, it seems someone else I know or know of, has passed away. Ladymars, our neighbors younger sister, and many people who have come close to death, but survived it somehow. (My nephew, my sister in law, and her baby) It seems to me that either I am noticing it more, or suddenly "death" is all around me. I often wonder am I next? How do I get out of this deep blue funk?