Hi everybody!

  Sorry that I have not been around in a while but things are not looking to good for me right now and I have been having a hard time dealing with life.  I went to the doctor the other day because I had a headache for 14 days straight, could not work, could not tend to my babies, could not stand life...he sent me to have a CT Scan and it came back with good news and very bad news, the good news was that I had a 100% sinus blockage causing the headaches, now the very bad news is that they discovered and this is what they called it a white matter disease aka encephalopathy(meaning brain disease) and that one of my arteries in my brain has a blockage...I need ya'lls prayers please, I cannot even image leaving my babies, this disease causes memory loss, loss of eye sight and hearing and many more things, I go this Tuesday for an MRI with contrast to see if what the first CT showed is true.  I am scared and extremely depressed.......I try to joke about it saying that I am only 40 with alzhimers (spelling) but it doesn't work when I lay down to go to bed at night, all I can see is Shy and Ka graduating and me not either being there or not knowing who they are......I had to quit work so now I sit at home feeling sorry for my self which I know that I should not do.......then I ask the question WHY ME?.......but ya know what, I know that with ya'lls prayers this thing is gonna go away and I am giong to get better and stay around along time to chat with ya'll.........God Bless Ya'll

 

Hugs

Sweet

aka Debbie