only if you allow yourself to be.

not really, unless you make it more complicated then it needs to be.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

thus allowing me to come along and pester you with my puerile ravings........but i believe every word, and it all worked for me, or i wouldn't have posted this

 

long-winded bastard that i am, i guess i'm not above preaching............and that's all you're gonna get out of me today!

Jen, I think that what you are expressing is the simplest of ways to put it but it's much more complicated than that..Maybe that's just me I dunno but it is the way it is for whatever reason..Sometimes we see things differently but that's okay..I understand what you are saying and I appreciate your words..

 

Jim, THANK YOU..sometimes you say the most insightful things that make so much sense to me..I say that cause so many times it feels like Iam on the outside looking in and I don't get the world and they don't get me..It can be so damn lonely..I do have my moments where I don't feel like an alien when someone gets me..This is one of those moments..It seems so rare but Iam enjoying it while it lasts..Someone else told me the same thing you just did last night but your words, the detail, is really what I needed to hear..What Iam feeling is the begining of change which I think on some level Iam fighting cause it is damn scarey to feel like I have lost all that I ever thought I knew..I feel so confused right now..I don't feel like I trust myself to percieve things the way I use to always..It's so hard..Sometimes I feel like Iam losing my mind..This is one of those times..All I can say for the moment..Thanks again to you both..Hugs..

 Cut within

Slash the enemy

Release the feelings

 

 Tired of the fight

Empty space

Voice echos

Words lost

Existing alone

 

Misery surrounds

Fears hold back

Paranoia grips

Pain overwhelms

Anxiety drains

 

Withdraw inside

Blades for release

Pain to punish

Starve to change

Control in chaos

Worries set aside

Focus within