Angelspirit,           I am sorry you have been going through such a difficult time.  Please do not hate yourself because of your need to cut.  It happens to many people and it is not something that is easily controlled.  It's not your fault.  I have never cut but, I know the urge to cut.  Well, I have cut in a feeble attempt to kill myself.  I am new to this community and I do not know what your history is or if you receive psychiatric care or not.  If you aren't, I hope you do.  It can be beneficial to you in so many ways.  They aren't going to lock you up for cutting or consider you bizarre.  It's far more common than people know.  Another thing to consider is a mental health site called:  healthyplace.com.  It is a wonderful site and has much to offer.  It has a number of different communities, lectures on different subjects, chat rooms, a writing wall, online tests, and a radio show once a week on a mental health topic.  I am not sure what else is available.  There are quite a lot of chat rooms for different disorders.  One of these rooms is for self injury.  It is one of the most used rooms there.  It's a very supportive and helpful place.  You might take a look at it.  Meanwhile, I wish you well and hope you feel better.  Take care, and treat yourself kindly,         starfire