..........nobody holds it against ya, Pam........haven't we been there at one time or the other?
**unsolicited advice**...........see a doc, get some meds..........many many people are helped, it's a "quality of life" issue, plain and simple..........you may have a prejudice against meds, re-think it objectively..........you may be afraid of the dreaded "side effects", well most aren't as bad as made out by some, and ask yourself, what's worse, a mild side effect or the pain you feel so often?.........and if you get stabilised, you start to feel better about yourself, then maybe you could get a full-time job and move into your own place.............
I know it's very presumptuous of me to say all this.............but I've been there (still there), done that, and dammit I'm movin' on...............look hon, you gotta fight like the devil, with all the weapons and all the help you can get............(I almost gave up last week, but I didn't, and I'm still here)
hell, I'm even taking lithium in a (rather desperate) effort to get my mind under control (insert hysterical laughter here)...........but it's working, and ya just gotta try everything before you give up..................
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