How Can It Be...
Yesterday....
Yesterday was November 20th.
November 20th...
Why did this date stick in my mind?
What was it about it, that nagged at me so?
What was it about this date that I knew was so very, very important?
Why was this day suddenly so significant to me?
All day it tickled at the edge of my thoughts.
It nagged at me, refusing to give up.
It was like an itch that would not go away.
A song that you can't get out of your head.
A feeling from deep within you,
...that demands to be recognized.
Then...
Then it hit me.
Then I knew.
Then it all came clear.
And all I could think of was...
how can it be?
How can it be...
that a year has passed?
How can it be...
that all this time has so quickly slipped away?
How can it be...
that something so alive in my heart and mind,
...is now so long ago?
I sat as it hit me, realizing what the date meant.
Endless images flitting across my mind's eye.
I felt overwhelmed with all I was feeling
And all I could think of over and over and over was...
--how can it be?--
how can it be...
It was a year ago.
how can it be...
Nov. 20th that I got on that first plane.
how can it be...
Three plane changes, and thirty-some hours of flying.
how can it be...
Half a world away, a trip most only get to dream of.
how can it be...
And then finally I was there, and the dream was real.
My mind tells me it couldn't be a year,
...yet somehow it does seem so far away.
Time moving so swiftly,
taking me further away from when I was there.
And yet..
It all lives on inside of me,
...refusing to become just a memory.
One year ago yesterday, I boarded the plane that was taking me on a journey that most only dream about. That journey took me to Australia, to meet Lady Jade. She and I met almost 4 years ago now, online. That trip took me to meet her in real life. Granted... we did not actually meet until Nov. 22nd (the day before my b-day!). But to me.. it will always be the 20th that sticks out in my mind. Because that is when I started that trip. That incredible journey to meet her. The friend that will always be a part of me, no matter how far apart we are.
It humbles me how lucky I am to have been able to do this. It humbles me to realize that had we never met online, we never would have met at all. And my life would have been much emptier without her in it. Yes -- I flew half-way around the world to meet someone I had only known online. I had no doubts about what I was doing. I had no doubts about any of it. Sometimes you just know. And I knew.
I knew that I had to go. I knew that I had to meet her. After almost 3 years of talking online, Jade had become the dearest friend in my life. She and I have a connection like no other. And after all that time online, with it always being just words on a screen, I wanted to be able to look into my friends eyes when we talked. I wanted to be able to hear her voice. I wanted to be able to hold her when she hurt, and share in her laughter when she was happy. So many, many things. So I went. It was that simple, I just went....
Although I will never stop trying, I will never be able to describe what that trip meant to me. I will never be able to describe all we did and shared. I will never be able to describe how incredibly blessed I am to have the kind of friendship she and I have. And I will certainly never be able to describe how much she means to me.
What happened to me yesterday, is just as I wrote above. I couldn't escape it, the feeling I had. I know she feels it to. And although as the time has gotten closer and closer to a year from when I went there, and I have been thinking about it more and more as it got closer... it still hit me hard. I just can't believe a year has passed already.
---How Can it Be?---
Jade
My Dearest Friend
-I Miss You-
~Always~
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