My doctor wanted to put me on a nerve medication.. the name I cant remember, but it was one I was on durring my pregnancy with Cj. Then he wanted to put me on Adderal as well as Zoloft. That was just over a year and a half ago.. but at that time I refused the meds. Adderal being an anti-psychotic and Zoloft being an anti-depressant, I wasnt comfortable about mixing the two drugs. Not to mention the combined side effects of the the two. On to of these three drugs, he wanted me to take St. John's Wort to help stabilize my moods.
When I refused the meds, he talked me into trying the St. John's Wort.. and while it is herbal.. I took it back then for over three months and had a hard time going without it. As soon as I stopped taking it, my severe mood swings would return and I was a sheer B*tch. So I started back on them again and gradually took myself off the Wort. Going from 6 capsules a day down to none.
This last round of severe anxiety attacks, I was seriously dreading taking the wort again.. but I had to do something to help calm myself down and get my heart back to a normal rhythm. This time round I take two capsules a day and it helps to keep me from climbing the walls and it has helped to keep my anxeity in check so that my heart doesnt go nuts in my chest.
Since Chuck has been gone, and I've set some goals for myself, my anxiety has calmed down some. It still kicks in every so often.. but not on a daily basis now. My stress levels are now back down to a managable level. I've figured out that I cannot live with a man, nor can I tolerate being isolated. There are things I want and I'm willing to work for it.
My goal right now is to buy a home and property for me and my kids. I'm currently out looking at double wide trailors.. but who knows, come tax return time, I may go with a house and at least an acre of property. My options are endless and I hope to have my credit established again good enough to be able to get something.
Then the next thing I will be working on is getting a new car. Right now I just need something in good shape to be able to take my driver's test in to get my liscense. Then I can see about gettin a new car.
Those for the moment is the goals I have set for myself. No man, woman or child is gonna tell me I cant achieve them.
Love, Donna