Deep inside this is right,

I am totally sure it's for real.

My self conscience,

started confusing me,

with my emotions.

I thought it was another warning attack,

or something that was similar to guarding me.

I thought I was worrying,

that i was going completely crazy again,

but something was triggered.

 

At first I could not get it,

when I knew.

Why I was getting so nervous,

with every resurfaced thoughts.

The steps I was taking,

I knew were leading,

in the right directions.

Then I heard my inner voice,

say to me.

 

From strangers to friends,

I know what I am nervous about.

The closeness that we have again,

what I am feeling,

it's not because of you.

I was hoping for this,

for quite sometime,

and now it's here.

I am over joyed,

and overwhelmed with this nervousness,

which I know is natural.

I know this is going in the right way.

 

I know that I am important,

in your life,

that's why I worried,

on what you would think.

I am just shocked that this time,

or others,

my insecurities didn't block me,

from trying to see you.

It gave me courage,

to face these opportunities,

like this.

Being nervous,

means I care a lot,

to be sensitive to this.

 

From strangers to friends,

it is that step,

that is never easy.

It always will freak me out,

it's nothing new.

This step,

this recollection,

is something I always face,

because of growing up.

Something always triggers in me,

I wish these bad memories,

would just leave,

but something traumatic you can't block.

 

When I get angry,

or emotions similar to that,

I am afraid when it goes high,

I will scream.

I have every right to,

if its for good reasons,

I just don't want it to be any louder,

then a scream.

The ice is so cold,

I isolate dmyself,

and I don't want to be down there again.

I remind myself that if I do take a step back,

I am strong enough to get through the steam.

 

From strangers to friend,

I have to reassure myself I am strong,

because right now i am feeling that I am not sure.

I've finally made a huge step,

to let you be a friend to me,

and also allow myself to be a friend to you,

and not worry over if I am hurting you,

At times that is what goes through my head.

The process of being comfortable with you,

is the process I really want to happen.

I know it takes time for this.

This is the step I need to take,

and I hope I don't step back.

 

From strangers to friends,

I vow to never let a wall come between us,

and to finally stick with my words.

I am just so happy to know,

where we stand.