have currently gotten myself a new journal to keep all of my written poetry in especially with this upcoming poetry project.  Seems how my ten year class reunion is coming up in a few days, that is why I am walking down memory lane.  I am also about to buy some books that I read in the past that for some reason, didn't realize they actually helped me instead of hide me behind pages.  The characters of the book, were characters or people in my life that I learned from.  The books that I am looking to get shortly are of the Sweet Valley University series.  I am only picking certain books because they just hit me as the books that I liked reading  I just finished a new poem which I will get to you all soon called, "Sweet Valley Girl"  kind of an intro to relation to the characters.  Which had led me last night to make a list from Elementary to now, of all the crushes/attractions, and crushes or attractions on me, that had happened throughout all of those years.  The reason is one of the characters of the book Jessica, had gone thru so many guys before finding the right one because of her impulse personality.  Something I had back in t he day which got me in trouble.  After I listed all of the guy situations i remembered I narrowed it down to the top ten of each that I don't mind remembering, and was a good thing.

Altho as I was creating my list LOL, I thought of my first actual kiss.  Now usually yours first kiss you remember and you loved.  This first kiss I had received my reaction was EUGH GROSS!.  It was in first grade, I was in special ed. This kid named Andy who was also a special ed kiddo because he had a hearing impairment had a crush on me.  I thought he was weird not because of his disability or his outer appearance, just his way of attracting a gril LOL.  As I go thru the story you will see what I mean.  It was one day on the playground and Andy was bugging me  to go in his hideout (The entrance way to the school)  and at that point he asked me to kiss him.  I was like no way.  Then his reply was if you don't kiss me aliens will zap you.  What an interesting come on line huh rofl.  Then I did kiss him because at that age you believe anything.  When I walked away I had this grossed out face because it was disgusting.  After that I tried to forget this situation, well the special ed teacher whom me and Andy had associated with a lot, comes out to me and says I heard you and Andy kissed.  I was like yes and was so grossed out that circulated to the teachers ROFLMAO.  Throughout the years after he was the kind of kid who was an outcast and his way of making friends was forcing you to be friends with him.  He would start fights with you and get you in trouble.  That was just funny when I remembered my first actual kiss something not in the most favorable kisses in the world LOL. 

The other memory I will briefly that always makes me laugh, is when and I know this person will know who he is when he reads this, is coming out of core class sixth period and ramming my ear in his chest because I walked out not watching where i was going.  If he remembers this, it would be a miracle.  That was embarrassing especially when my friend buckwheat kept teasing me the rest of the day about it.

Its kind of interesting about the things you remember, its always a good thing to help you realize that even if you thought that you hid yourself in readings, you still did internal work on yourself.  I remembering I had done that with the Sweet Valley books i got myself wrapped into.  If you aknowledge what helped you out through tough times, you should pat yourself for making it this far in life.