crying in silence #2

you and mother could never have children of your own,so you adopted me and my brother Robert. I always thought that meant you loved children and wanted to raise them and give them a better life. You and mother where awful parents i wished you had left me in that childrens home. Mother would call us names and slap us around. She through a paddle at Rober and laid his face open and told you he fell down the stairs.She would pull my hair and tell me i was no good I cant ever remember her or you ever telling us you loved us. Mother one time made me sit at the kirchen table naked cause i had gotten in trouble at school.Robert use to have really bad night mares i can still hear him screaming from them. Then you would come to his room and beat on him he would have bruises all over his face. One day you got mad at him and busted his nose wide open. I remember you getting drunk and running around the house in your under wear and pulling me down on your lap.when you where drunk your breath smelled like wiskey and you would always slap me on the butt.Mom use to make me sit on the stairs when i was bad and wait for you to come home. One night you carried me to bed i had my pj's on and you put your hands under my top and where touching me.When i was 15 i started sneaking alchol out of the cubboard and would get drunk.You never hit on me but you touched me in a way a father should never touch their child. But you loved to hit on Robert you Let mother lock him in his room days at a time. Why did you adopt us didnt you ever love us. Our real parents where drunks they never hit us. you should have left us where you found us we would have been better off. Parents dont beat on their children or touch their body parts. Mother why did you let Dad do that to me why didn't you stop him. When i told you all you did was call me a liar. You never loved me or protected me you called me names told me i was worth less and never would amount to any thing. I would never treat my children like that i would make sure they always felt loved and felt safe.

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