I decided that I needed to start a new journal because I have changed in many ways since my last post in my other journal.

My Grandma and I moved into town after Grandpa passed away.

Grandma's health has gotten worse since Pa passed away.

We have had our fights and she has threatened to call the police. I decided i was leaving that I could not handle taking care of Grandma. As I was walking out the door she yelled that she was going to call the cops. I walked about a mile and a half to the cematary and I sat by Pa and my uncle Tim's graves. I talked to them and I cried and everything. I felt so much better except that I did not realize how dark it was getting. I got up and walked home. I thought I had been gone for several hours. When I walked into the apartment Grandma told me to call my Mom and tell her that I was home. So I called my Mom and told her I was home and she said Well you were only gone an hour and a half. Which I think she was drunk that night.

I have been out of the hospital for over a month.

I sometimes think about the hospital and think that I wish I was there. But i don't go there because they do nothing for me.

I might as well stay up all night because if I go to bed then it is going to be hard to get up in the morning.

I can watch TV and I can be on my computer.

I have my own laptop now. i bought it myself even though my uncle say Grandma bought it for me.

Anyways if I stay up I will come back in and post.

LacyLou