Hi Everyone;

                     Oh no I have had a rough couple of days let me start with a story that goes back to march with HIM..... Well he use to work for this guy named Jeff right and HE was always working and suposedly getting paid $16 an hour and working at least 40hours a week and only brining home $200 dollars or so I could never get it I would ask and HE would say oh its because I dont get paid to watch paint dry or stucco dry (HE is a building Painter). So me not knowing how all that worked I let it be but then I started noticeing alot of weird changes in him things that only come with drug use or something right. Well I was right, well around march 23 or so HE got real sick and would not sleep and woke me up at like 3 am pale and scared telling me HE thought HE was gonna die of a heart attack me scared no realy knowing what was going on took him to the E.R. low and behold it was a drug over dose. Well that is when it all came out. Jeff would pay HIM some cash for his job and the other in drugs. Well being that I thought if HE left that situation it would be better for HIM and us, so I told that guy Jeff to leave us alone and never come around our property or I would call the cops which in turn Jeff told me, you think HE is gonna stop working for me i pay him good and HE loves it with me I said we will see, with so much confidence right. Well when HE got out of the hospital I gave him my expectations and told HIM either that job and the drugs or Me...... HE promised oh how he promised that it was me all the way. So he started working for this other person for a couple a weeks and didnt like the pay but shortly after found another job with a fella named Alex well well HE has been working for this Alex guy since and even got into a car accident with this Alex guy, I have never met this fello just because the momment I heard of Alex something didnt sit right with me for some reason.Well months passed right and certin things started to get weird and I didnt think anything of it and yeah there was alot of other  problems between HIM and I that I guess thats why I didnt catch on to it. Well on sunday HE got home from work and HE was a intoxicated HE had went to the bar after work with HIS boss (Alex) and when HE got home his cell phone was dead so I did HIM a favor and checked HIS voice mail HE had a message from the waitress upset that HE had left HIS bar tab and didnt pay it so I told HIM "why would you do that?" He said that alex paid it I said apprently not so HE start to cal ALEX and the girl kept calling so I asked HIM for ALEX's phone number each time HE gave me the number it was diffrent so I went on to the phone he was useing to call ALEX and got the number and called ALEX but WOW it was not ALEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was JEFF UGH. I lost it.. I lost it because that meant for at least 3 months HE has been lying where HE was and who HE was with!!!!!! 3 months lying to my face!!!!! I made HIM leave I told HIM right now was not gonna work out I didnt trust HIM anymore!!!! Well since then I have found out that HE only lasted 10 days on HIS promise 10 days I was only worth 10 days until HE went back to JEFF!!! What a slap in the face this is. Now HE is telling me HE has no Idea why I am mad that I am acting like HE was messing around or cheating I told him it was if not the same or worse it was lying and deceaving me!! HE dont get it DRUGS and LYING for months to my face!! Then last nite his family call because he is on a drinking benge because HE has lost me and wants to kill HIMSELF and other dumb things and I get involved because a part of ME still cares and I or no one is worth killing yourself over. Well now I am at a crossroad.... a point I have wanted for a while. I didnt want it like this but what can I do, HE is out of out house and right now if I realy wanted I could clean my hands of HIM, but there always is a but right, but what would that say about me??? I am gonna stand my ground and I am no longer gonna except anything less and HE will become aware of it, HE will have to show major changes and prove to me HE is gonna change and as sad as it is I know that, that is gonna be very unlikely. SO now what, how do I work it all out with out feeling like the bad guy? OHHHHHH Girls I am sad but releaved if that makes sense?

THANK YOU FOR READING THIS :)

GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!!