I so badly need sleep. Taking care of Grandma and Grandpa is taking alot out of me. I hardly get any sleep. I try to stay awake so that I can hear them if they yell.  Man do I just wish I could sleep. I just keep praying to God to give me strength and courage to keep going and to keep taking care of them.

   My worker Marsha came this afternoon. She took me to town and I got groceries and stopped at the drug store and also got Grandma's paper from my Mom's. Marsha said that she would see me on Tuesdays and Fridays. I really don't want to loose her as a worker. She means so much to me. She is the reason that I am still here...She keeps me going. She gave me enough hugs to last me until Tuesday I hope. 

   I prayed last night that God would just hold me and help me feel ok...safe is maybe a better word. I told him that I wanted Marsha to just hold me. But I didn't ask her to and I really wish I would have. She is going to give me a picture of her and her husband. Then at least I can see her kinda...Hearing her voice and seeing her makes me feel like I can keep going.

   I don't know how much more stress I can handle. I just want to keep helping. I can not give up. I gotta keep helping Grandma and Grandpa. Everyone else has a job and a family. Although my Aunt Larae is coming tomorrow. I asked Grandma if I get tomorrow off and she said no.

   I really feel like calling either Father Marty or Pastor Jeff. I know that they both care about me. And that it isn't because it is their job. 

  Thank you for listening...

   God Bless,

   LacyLou1985