UNTIL NOW
And as I sit and watch the ever luminescent glow of your smile,

My heart aches to hold you,
For an eternity have I waited,

Longing to touch your sweet lips,

Praying our love would be strong and true,
As I think back to the first eve I saw you,

How I pained to take you,

To make love to you through the entire night,
I wished, I hoped, I dreamed, I fantasized, I imagined, I pondered,

I wondered, I thought, I realized, I cried,
I knew you could never be mine,

I knew to myself it was just a lie,

No matter how badly I wanted,

No matter how much I tried,
Because light seldom shines upon my path,

Seldom allows me to see,

Rarely am I allowed to roam down the road where my heart may run free,
Always there is a price,

Tugging at my luck,

Always there is a string,

Fortune, destiny, fate never bringing me anything,
Often I have asked the eternal question,

'Why me? Why me?�?
Never an answer, only pain, only sacrifice, only . . . enmity,
Until now.