I am to upset to even cuss properly. I know there is a plan or a test to be followed. But I feel I am not going to pass, and following without knowing the plan is very hard.

I am in shock and disbelief that this abuse is not over with yet. Why do things have to be so complicated? Why Why Why ? I am glad I had not made any plans yet and even more glad I did not hold my breath. I have to call my parents and tell them no reason to come up here on Monday. Waiting until 5 days before christmas just ruined the holidays for all of us. Divorce 9/18/2006 NOT..... Divorce 12/20/2006 who knows. I feel so beaten and defeated. Brian is as upset as I am and Kyle does not know yet. Why can't it just be over with ?